Getting involved.
Check out these websites and see if any of them would be something you are interested in. If you are I would like to hear from you. Tell me what you think. Or if there is another idea that you would want me to touch on.
Gospel For Asia
http://www.gfa.org/sponsor/
http://www.gfa.org/pray/
http://www.gfa.org/church/
http://www.worldharvestmission.org/penpal.htm
http://www.abolishchildtrafficking.org/
http://www.hopeforhaiti.com/volunteering.php
http://www.hopeforhaiti.com/donations.php
http://www.worldvision.org/content.nsf/pages/sponsor-a-child-regions?open&?open&campaign=1193512&cmp=KNC-1193512
http://www.namb.net/student-opportunities/
http://www.namb.net/volunteer-groups/
Sunday, September 4, 2011
7 Day Wake Up Journey. Part 1
The world needs to start waking up and realizing that there are people in this world that suffer for God. Realizing that we need to help them and have a stronger deeper passion for God.
Psalm 57
Read. 4"I am in the midst of lions; I lie among ravenous beasts-men whose teeth are spears and arrows, whose tongues are sharp swords." Some of us know how that feel like. The rest of us including myself do not know how that feels. We have never been persecuted for our faith. We just sit in the same seat every week listening to our sermon. Many of us have walked out of church offended. We have prayer request time which in reality is gossip circle. We have paintings, sculptures, robes, flowers, chandeliers, and many other features that adorn our churches. We don't really know the hard side of Christianity.
I would like to share a few quotes from you from a book called Revolution In World Missions by K.P. Yohannan. Actually after this 7 day study we will be doing a study on this book. So I would encourage you to buy it or get it free from this Website. http://www.gfa.org/offer/freebook-b/
"How can a Christian keep silent?" he asked. "How can a church go underground? Jesus died openly for us. He did not try to hide on the way to the cross. We also must speak out boldly for Him regardless of the consequences."
"God did not shower such great blessing on this nation for the Christians to live in extravagance,self-indulgence and spiritual weakness."
There it is plain and simple. Clear as mud. Yet will you do anything about it? Will you change the world? Will you get off you high throne and go spread Gods word?
Psalm 57
Read. 4"I am in the midst of lions; I lie among ravenous beasts-men whose teeth are spears and arrows, whose tongues are sharp swords." Some of us know how that feel like. The rest of us including myself do not know how that feels. We have never been persecuted for our faith. We just sit in the same seat every week listening to our sermon. Many of us have walked out of church offended. We have prayer request time which in reality is gossip circle. We have paintings, sculptures, robes, flowers, chandeliers, and many other features that adorn our churches. We don't really know the hard side of Christianity.
I would like to share a few quotes from you from a book called Revolution In World Missions by K.P. Yohannan. Actually after this 7 day study we will be doing a study on this book. So I would encourage you to buy it or get it free from this Website. http://www.gfa.org/offer/freebook-b/
"How can a Christian keep silent?" he asked. "How can a church go underground? Jesus died openly for us. He did not try to hide on the way to the cross. We also must speak out boldly for Him regardless of the consequences."
"God did not shower such great blessing on this nation for the Christians to live in extravagance,self-indulgence and spiritual weakness."
There it is plain and simple. Clear as mud. Yet will you do anything about it? Will you change the world? Will you get off you high throne and go spread Gods word?
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Soul Surfer!
“I could never have embraced this many people with two arms.”
I'm sure we have all heard of this movie. Most of us just thought oh its another one of "those" movies. But its not. It is really good. I teaches you good things. I'll take you on a little journey through it's amazing quotes. I hope you will feel led to watch it.
“I don’t need easy. I just need possible.”
Most of the time in our lives we look for easy. We search for the easy way out. Most of the time there are easy ways out. But sometimes there aren't. Whether or not there is an easy way out, it does NOT help you grow in your life. All we truly need in life is a possible way.(Whether easy or hard)
“Love is bigger than any tidal wave or fear.”
LOVE truly is bigger. Because GOD IS LOVE! 1 John 4:8 "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
“Compassion can drive us to do amazing things and give us perspective.”
We never really try to feel compassion. If it makes us cry we will go hide it or go away from that situation. I believe it scares us. We are sure how to feel it. We this is is sympathy or empathy. But what is it really? Compassion-Deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled with the wish to relieve it.
“I could never have embraced this many people with two arms.”
Sometimes we have to loose something to realize how much we can really do.
The Book Soul Surfer.
-I believe in God. I don't mean that I believe in Him like a person might believe in, say, gravity or the sun coming up in the morning. Those are just facts that don't mean anything. I mean I REALLY believe in God.
-The paramedic whispered in my ear "God will never leave you or forsake you."
-God did have something bigger planned for me. What we all needed to do was trust... and believe
-My friend Sarah says that I get to be the voice of God. I usually roll my eyes when she says it, because if I were God, I would never have chosen me of all people to speak for him.
-I think that if I can help other people find hope in God, then that is worth losing my arm for.
I'm sure we have all heard of this movie. Most of us just thought oh its another one of "those" movies. But its not. It is really good. I teaches you good things. I'll take you on a little journey through it's amazing quotes. I hope you will feel led to watch it.
“I don’t need easy. I just need possible.”
Most of the time in our lives we look for easy. We search for the easy way out. Most of the time there are easy ways out. But sometimes there aren't. Whether or not there is an easy way out, it does NOT help you grow in your life. All we truly need in life is a possible way.(Whether easy or hard)
“Love is bigger than any tidal wave or fear.”
LOVE truly is bigger. Because GOD IS LOVE! 1 John 4:8 "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
“Compassion can drive us to do amazing things and give us perspective.”
We never really try to feel compassion. If it makes us cry we will go hide it or go away from that situation. I believe it scares us. We are sure how to feel it. We this is is sympathy or empathy. But what is it really? Compassion-Deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled with the wish to relieve it.
“I could never have embraced this many people with two arms.”
Sometimes we have to loose something to realize how much we can really do.
The Book Soul Surfer.
-I believe in God. I don't mean that I believe in Him like a person might believe in, say, gravity or the sun coming up in the morning. Those are just facts that don't mean anything. I mean I REALLY believe in God.
-The paramedic whispered in my ear "God will never leave you or forsake you."
-God did have something bigger planned for me. What we all needed to do was trust... and believe
-My friend Sarah says that I get to be the voice of God. I usually roll my eyes when she says it, because if I were God, I would never have chosen me of all people to speak for him.
-I think that if I can help other people find hope in God, then that is worth losing my arm for.
My Love Story! Part 3:)
The next morning Beth woke to find herself lying on her husbands lap in front of the dieing fire as the sun rose over the sand duns. Jack was asleep with his arm around her. She stood up and went to the window, looked out and saw a little shepherd there grazing his sheep about ninety feet from the house. The boy look young and frail a little tired but he burned for some excitement inside.
Beth ran back and got dressed in a royal blue satin gown with gold buttons. As she walked out of the room her gown flowed along with her. She opened the door and the breeze blew in she walked out to the little boy.
“Hi, I am Beth potter I live in the house over there and I was wondering if you watched some goats.”
“Yeah I look after a few goats. Let me guess you want milk well I am sorry that is all the food I get while I am on the job so no.” said the little boy in an evil tone.
“Oh I do not want to take from you I want to trade maybe milk for some ham and bread.”
“Really you would do that for me?”
“Yes, I would I want milk you need food. How old are anyway?”
“I am thirteen years old my name is Colton Jackson but every one calls me Cole. I work for Gregory Smith a mean old man.”
“Well nice to meet you Cole.” She put her hand out for him to shake and he did. “So it is a deal?”
“Yes, I think it is.”
“I will go get a bucket and then make you some food.”
Beth briskly walked over to the house grabbed a bucket and took it to the boy. By this time Jack was up and in the back. Beth started heating some bread and ham over the fire witch she reignited. Jack slowly walked out and sat on the couch as he put on his leather boots.
“Beth you understand that I will need to go in town and do my job that means you will stay here or walk to town,” Said Jack.
“Yes Jack I understand. I will be fine. Maybe I will bring you lunch and go visit Jeremy,” said Beth.
“Sweetheart that sounds nice. Be careful and go see your parents they want to see you I bet.”
“Jack that is smart I will go see my parents.”
“Why are you making ham and bread it is seven in the morning?”
“Well I am making a trade with the shepherd boy out I give him meet and bread for some milk.”
“Well ok I best get going I will be back as soon as my jobs are done.”
Jack left the house and Beth finished cooking the ham and bread. She rolled it up in a cloth and took it out to Cole. He gave her the milk and thanked her. Beth walked in the house knowing that she felt uncontrollably unsafe and scared. The house creaked and the wind blew.
Beth decided to go to town where she thought she would feel safer. She rode one of Jack’s fine horses. The horse was black and beautiful. She enjoyed her ride to town. Then she got to town.
Beth walked off to “Old Bills Outdoor York” where you could buy outdoor furniture and supplies. There she bought five packs of twenty seeds for squash, peppers, corn, black eye peas, beets, and radishes. Then she got a lemon tree and rosemary plant all she had left was twenty five cents which she spent over at Bells Food on peppermint candy.
After her shopping she went over to the New York dress shop to talk to Jeremy. She walked in to see him drawing a design for a beautiful wedding dress. The dress was off-white with a corset front. The waist was low and in the back was a bow.
“Hey Jerr, I love the dress. For some one special?”
“No not really just another design for a young lady not marrying me.”
“I am sorry for you romantic difficulties but I was wondering if you could make that dress for me and Jack’s wedding?” Beth said with a smile.
“Yeah I guess I could. I thought ya’ll were married. Is there something you need to tall me my little Bethy?”
“No but if there was why would I tell you? We are by the justice of the peace but I want to have a ceremony and make it a surprise to jack.”
“Well I might be able to pull a few strings to get it for you at a low cost.”
“Oh that would be great thank you. Do you know anything about a Shepard boy named Cole?”
“His parents moved away and could not afford to take him so they left him with a big sheep owner to work for free milk and warm clothes.”
“I can not believe people could do that to a little boy. What does he eat?”’
“Mostly milk and bugs or wild plants. He has a lot of spunk.”
“Wow that is sad. Well I need to go see my parents. Bye Jeremy.”
Beth ran back and got dressed in a royal blue satin gown with gold buttons. As she walked out of the room her gown flowed along with her. She opened the door and the breeze blew in she walked out to the little boy.
“Hi, I am Beth potter I live in the house over there and I was wondering if you watched some goats.”
“Yeah I look after a few goats. Let me guess you want milk well I am sorry that is all the food I get while I am on the job so no.” said the little boy in an evil tone.
“Oh I do not want to take from you I want to trade maybe milk for some ham and bread.”
“Really you would do that for me?”
“Yes, I would I want milk you need food. How old are anyway?”
“I am thirteen years old my name is Colton Jackson but every one calls me Cole. I work for Gregory Smith a mean old man.”
“Well nice to meet you Cole.” She put her hand out for him to shake and he did. “So it is a deal?”
“Yes, I think it is.”
“I will go get a bucket and then make you some food.”
Beth briskly walked over to the house grabbed a bucket and took it to the boy. By this time Jack was up and in the back. Beth started heating some bread and ham over the fire witch she reignited. Jack slowly walked out and sat on the couch as he put on his leather boots.
“Beth you understand that I will need to go in town and do my job that means you will stay here or walk to town,” Said Jack.
“Yes Jack I understand. I will be fine. Maybe I will bring you lunch and go visit Jeremy,” said Beth.
“Sweetheart that sounds nice. Be careful and go see your parents they want to see you I bet.”
“Jack that is smart I will go see my parents.”
“Why are you making ham and bread it is seven in the morning?”
“Well I am making a trade with the shepherd boy out I give him meet and bread for some milk.”
“Well ok I best get going I will be back as soon as my jobs are done.”
Jack left the house and Beth finished cooking the ham and bread. She rolled it up in a cloth and took it out to Cole. He gave her the milk and thanked her. Beth walked in the house knowing that she felt uncontrollably unsafe and scared. The house creaked and the wind blew.
Beth decided to go to town where she thought she would feel safer. She rode one of Jack’s fine horses. The horse was black and beautiful. She enjoyed her ride to town. Then she got to town.
Beth walked off to “Old Bills Outdoor York” where you could buy outdoor furniture and supplies. There she bought five packs of twenty seeds for squash, peppers, corn, black eye peas, beets, and radishes. Then she got a lemon tree and rosemary plant all she had left was twenty five cents which she spent over at Bells Food on peppermint candy.
After her shopping she went over to the New York dress shop to talk to Jeremy. She walked in to see him drawing a design for a beautiful wedding dress. The dress was off-white with a corset front. The waist was low and in the back was a bow.
“Hey Jerr, I love the dress. For some one special?”
“No not really just another design for a young lady not marrying me.”
“I am sorry for you romantic difficulties but I was wondering if you could make that dress for me and Jack’s wedding?” Beth said with a smile.
“Yeah I guess I could. I thought ya’ll were married. Is there something you need to tall me my little Bethy?”
“No but if there was why would I tell you? We are by the justice of the peace but I want to have a ceremony and make it a surprise to jack.”
“Well I might be able to pull a few strings to get it for you at a low cost.”
“Oh that would be great thank you. Do you know anything about a Shepard boy named Cole?”
“His parents moved away and could not afford to take him so they left him with a big sheep owner to work for free milk and warm clothes.”
“I can not believe people could do that to a little boy. What does he eat?”’
“Mostly milk and bugs or wild plants. He has a lot of spunk.”
“Wow that is sad. Well I need to go see my parents. Bye Jeremy.”
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Prayer!
2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
God asks us to pray. But why don't we? It helps us. Prayer changes, redeems, heals, comforts, and helps you in every way.
Esther 4:14 For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?
Do not remain silent. That is the worst thing you could every do. Talk to God and tell people about him no matter what.
Matthew 6:6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
Prayer isn't something to brag about or a way to get attention from others to benefit you. It is purely a way to worship God and to talk to him and ask him for things that are on your heart.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PrgP3In7jw
Matthew 7:7-11 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
God has told us that if we ask he will give us GOOD gifts that we need in our lives. So pray for yourself, your family, your town, your nation, and most of all your world.
Luke 22:40 On reaching the place, he said to them, "Pray that you will not fall into temptation."
Temptation is so real. Pray that you don't give in, even though at times you will.
John 15:7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.
Know His words and what He says. Pray that what the Bible says to do you will be willing to do. No matter what get in your way.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9kmViiBANE&feature=related
1 Timothy 2:1-2 I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.
Please I beg you to pray! Prayer is what can change our world for the good. Start today even if you don't know how. God is calling you to pray.
God asks us to pray. But why don't we? It helps us. Prayer changes, redeems, heals, comforts, and helps you in every way.
Esther 4:14 For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?
Do not remain silent. That is the worst thing you could every do. Talk to God and tell people about him no matter what.
Matthew 6:6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.
Prayer isn't something to brag about or a way to get attention from others to benefit you. It is purely a way to worship God and to talk to him and ask him for things that are on your heart.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PrgP3In7jw
Matthew 7:7-11 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. "Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!
God has told us that if we ask he will give us GOOD gifts that we need in our lives. So pray for yourself, your family, your town, your nation, and most of all your world.
Luke 22:40 On reaching the place, he said to them, "Pray that you will not fall into temptation."
Temptation is so real. Pray that you don't give in, even though at times you will.
John 15:7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.
Know His words and what He says. Pray that what the Bible says to do you will be willing to do. No matter what get in your way.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9kmViiBANE&feature=related
1 Timothy 2:1-2 I urge, then, first of all, that requests, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for everyone— for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness.
Please I beg you to pray! Prayer is what can change our world for the good. Start today even if you don't know how. God is calling you to pray.
Monday, August 8, 2011
My Love Story!! Part 2:) Tell Me What You Think!
After an hour or two they finally arrived in El Elizario. The whole town seemed to be in a frenzy. People ran around in and out of houses screaming for shelter. There were no weather problems Beth did not know what to think. John asked a lady what was wrong she said nothing but gave him a strange look.
The bar closed witch was very unusual. See the bar was pretty much the entertainment of the town. Suddenly the town got quiet. Jack said there is nothing to worry about I bet some old lady said there was a curse of something and now the whole town is scared.
“Do you want me to drive the buggy to your house?” asked Jeremy.
“No Beth did not bring much we will be fine walking,” replied Jack.
“Ok then I will see ya’ll soon.”
“Where is your amazing house my love?” said Beth.
“About half a mile away. It is a short walk.”
They walked through the Texan town with its beautiful Mexican features. Red and yellow chilly peppers hanging from porches. Adobe buildings some painted with natural paints. The stillness and quiet was interrupted by cats and dogs running up and down the dirt streets of El Elizario. Little did the couple know why the town was in a frenzy and why it’s now calm on the outside but with people scared behind closed doors.
They walked about half the way to his house when they turn a corner and came face to face with a man in a dark red shirt and a pistol in hand. He pointed the gun in Beth’s chest. It all went silent. The man smiled with a sharp look. Jack moved.
The man said, “Don’t you move to get no gun I came to get settled and we are going to do it my way unless you want this prize woman to have a hole in her beautiful chest.”
“I don’t have a gun Joe. You better know if I had a gun I would fight you but I do not.”
Jacks enemy’s face became livid. Joe moved the gun to Jack’s chest. He said, “Don’t tell me you don’t got a gun that would be a lie. Every man in Texas knows you always carry a gun, always.”
“If you are going to shoot me do it now you are not going to get a chance like this ever again.”
“Why you ain’t got a gun, been to Sunday-school?”
“I came from Boston with my wife. I am married.”
“Married!”
“Yes Joe I am married.”
“Married?” Joe stood there repeating that for a while as though it was an impossible matter to comprehend. “Is this your lady?”
“Yes Joe this is my lady.”
“I suppose there is not going to be a fight.”
“Only if that is the way you want it Joe.”
“Well it is all off Jack. Married?”
Joe slowly walked away kicking the dirt and saying married. Soon Joe was out of sight and Beth and Jack started walking to the house. Now Jack and Beth new why the town was in a frenzy.
“Who was that man,” Sputtered Beth Potter as the fear from the moment passed suddenly arose.
“Joe Bigger, he is a drunk been make’n trouble for years. He use to be part of a big gang but he is the only one left,” Said Jack Potter
“Why did he want to kill you?”
“One time he was threatening the whole town. I crept up behind him and shot him he did not die but he was out for a while. But you need not be worried he is only wild when he gets a little too much of that poison. With out that beer he would be the kindest man in town.”
“Oh well bolt the oak door tonight anyways for me would ya?”
“Ok then maybe you could make some hot coco it’s a little cold out,” he said as they walked in the house.
“Before I make hot coco guess who gets to start the fire.”
“I don’t know if I could bear to help you but for old times sake I guess I will babe.”
“Well you better or you won’t have any breakfast in the morning.”
“I will go get some wood. Be back in a jip.”
The house was still and quiet. With sand floors, windows with old wood shutters, no curtains, the fire place was made of red clay it looked like a Mexican bread cooker. In the next room a bed with an old quilt, a wooden side table with a picture of a woman on a horse she wondered who the woman was. In a small brown trunk was a woman’s dress of fine pink silk, white pearls lined the collar. Beth wondered who the dress belonged to. She turned around to see a small gold ring on the bed she went over to pick it up but Jack came in the door and she dropped it.
“So what do you think of the house?” asked Jack.
“It is lovely. Where did the dress come from?”
“That was my finance’s from years ago. Don’t get any bad ideas from it. I thought I could never see you again and was desperate. And no she did not live with me her parents just gave me this stuff.”
“What happened to her?”
“She drowned in the creek two years back.”
“Oh I am so sorry. Why did you not tell me about her?”
“I was hoping to forget it and not have to bring you in to all my past life problems. But I knew it would not work.”
“I appreciate your thoughtfulness to care for me my love but we are married I am ok dealing with your problems that is what I am here for.” Beth said as she went up to hug her 20 year old husband. He picked her up and carried her all the way to bed and said the dress is all yours. As they laid there Jack reached over and put one hand on each of her cheeks leaned forward and kissed her. In that moment Beth new that this is where she wanted to be. Jack took her hand and walked over to the trunk pulled out a secret compartment and showed her a school picture from when they were young on the back was a note to Beth.
He read it, “Dear Beth I have loved you ever since the first day of school when you walked in and said now where do I sit in your preppy tone. I remember I gave you my seat and sat in the corner until they got a new desk. And the day when you strolled in the door of the school with you low cut dress from the east the way it made you like a queen from the books you would always read. Then the day of the fair when I asked you to dance and you said you might be bad at it. The thing you did not know was I had no idea how to dance I really wanted to walk with you over to the stable and give you a ride over to my new job as sheriff. But then you move away to Boston so you could act. I love you and want you to come home. Love Jack.”
He looked over to see a tear rolling down her cheek. She looked up and smiled with her whole heart as another tear began to form see wiped her eyes. In Beth’s heart was an empty place which was now filled almost to the over flowing point.
“I was going to sent it but I knew I had to go up and get you myself,” Said Jack in his soft tone.
“You really have loved me since I was twelve?”
“Yeah I really have even though I was two years older than you.”
“And that dress from New York you thought I looked beautiful.”
“Yeah, why did you stop wearing it?”
“I thought you did not like it you never said anything”
“You wore that dress it impress me?”
“Yeah I would have done anything for you but then Marie came and she got your attention. Was she your finance?”
“I loved her not as much as you but I gave upon us, when you moved away and broke my heart.”
“I move to run away from seeing you and Marie. I could not bear to see the man I loved with another girl. I knew I could not compete with her beauty.” Beth said then it got quiet Beth stood up and walked over to the bed and laid down. Jack soon followed; he took her hands and showed her where to find clothes to sleep in.
As she looked around it was a small room filled with clothes, some lace, satin, and silk. She picked out a thin dress with lace on the top and bottom. Pearls flowed down each side of the dress. It was a light purple witch made her skin look so smooth and delicate. She took her curly blonde hair down from her braid and let it flow down on the right side of her chest.
She walked out of the small room through the bedroom and in to the living room. Jack was stoking the fire. Beth found the bucket of water, pored some into a kettle put it by the fire to boil. Jack went out to get more firewood for the night. Beth scooted his frail futon in front of the fire and sat on it reading Romeo and Juliet. Jack walked put the wood by the fire and stood tall.
“O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name.
Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love
And I'll no longer be a Capulet,” Said Jack.
“You read this book?”
“Yeah it is your favorite.”
“Aawww that is so sweet. Do you want to sit?”
“Yeah if you really want me to.”
“Oh trust me I do. Really”
“Let us read it I read some then you then me ok.”
“Fine with me.”
So Beth and Jack read all night while sitting by the fire drinking hot coco. Shakespeare would be proud to know his book made another relationship stronger.
“True, I talk of dreams, which are the children of an idle brain, Begot of nothing but vain fantasy. Which is as thin of substance as the air; and more inconstant than the wind, who wooes even now the frozen bosom of the north, and, being anger’d, puffs away from thence, turning his face to the dew-dropping south.”
The bar closed witch was very unusual. See the bar was pretty much the entertainment of the town. Suddenly the town got quiet. Jack said there is nothing to worry about I bet some old lady said there was a curse of something and now the whole town is scared.
“Do you want me to drive the buggy to your house?” asked Jeremy.
“No Beth did not bring much we will be fine walking,” replied Jack.
“Ok then I will see ya’ll soon.”
“Where is your amazing house my love?” said Beth.
“About half a mile away. It is a short walk.”
They walked through the Texan town with its beautiful Mexican features. Red and yellow chilly peppers hanging from porches. Adobe buildings some painted with natural paints. The stillness and quiet was interrupted by cats and dogs running up and down the dirt streets of El Elizario. Little did the couple know why the town was in a frenzy and why it’s now calm on the outside but with people scared behind closed doors.
They walked about half the way to his house when they turn a corner and came face to face with a man in a dark red shirt and a pistol in hand. He pointed the gun in Beth’s chest. It all went silent. The man smiled with a sharp look. Jack moved.
The man said, “Don’t you move to get no gun I came to get settled and we are going to do it my way unless you want this prize woman to have a hole in her beautiful chest.”
“I don’t have a gun Joe. You better know if I had a gun I would fight you but I do not.”
Jacks enemy’s face became livid. Joe moved the gun to Jack’s chest. He said, “Don’t tell me you don’t got a gun that would be a lie. Every man in Texas knows you always carry a gun, always.”
“If you are going to shoot me do it now you are not going to get a chance like this ever again.”
“Why you ain’t got a gun, been to Sunday-school?”
“I came from Boston with my wife. I am married.”
“Married!”
“Yes Joe I am married.”
“Married?” Joe stood there repeating that for a while as though it was an impossible matter to comprehend. “Is this your lady?”
“Yes Joe this is my lady.”
“I suppose there is not going to be a fight.”
“Only if that is the way you want it Joe.”
“Well it is all off Jack. Married?”
Joe slowly walked away kicking the dirt and saying married. Soon Joe was out of sight and Beth and Jack started walking to the house. Now Jack and Beth new why the town was in a frenzy.
“Who was that man,” Sputtered Beth Potter as the fear from the moment passed suddenly arose.
“Joe Bigger, he is a drunk been make’n trouble for years. He use to be part of a big gang but he is the only one left,” Said Jack Potter
“Why did he want to kill you?”
“One time he was threatening the whole town. I crept up behind him and shot him he did not die but he was out for a while. But you need not be worried he is only wild when he gets a little too much of that poison. With out that beer he would be the kindest man in town.”
“Oh well bolt the oak door tonight anyways for me would ya?”
“Ok then maybe you could make some hot coco it’s a little cold out,” he said as they walked in the house.
“Before I make hot coco guess who gets to start the fire.”
“I don’t know if I could bear to help you but for old times sake I guess I will babe.”
“Well you better or you won’t have any breakfast in the morning.”
“I will go get some wood. Be back in a jip.”
The house was still and quiet. With sand floors, windows with old wood shutters, no curtains, the fire place was made of red clay it looked like a Mexican bread cooker. In the next room a bed with an old quilt, a wooden side table with a picture of a woman on a horse she wondered who the woman was. In a small brown trunk was a woman’s dress of fine pink silk, white pearls lined the collar. Beth wondered who the dress belonged to. She turned around to see a small gold ring on the bed she went over to pick it up but Jack came in the door and she dropped it.
“So what do you think of the house?” asked Jack.
“It is lovely. Where did the dress come from?”
“That was my finance’s from years ago. Don’t get any bad ideas from it. I thought I could never see you again and was desperate. And no she did not live with me her parents just gave me this stuff.”
“What happened to her?”
“She drowned in the creek two years back.”
“Oh I am so sorry. Why did you not tell me about her?”
“I was hoping to forget it and not have to bring you in to all my past life problems. But I knew it would not work.”
“I appreciate your thoughtfulness to care for me my love but we are married I am ok dealing with your problems that is what I am here for.” Beth said as she went up to hug her 20 year old husband. He picked her up and carried her all the way to bed and said the dress is all yours. As they laid there Jack reached over and put one hand on each of her cheeks leaned forward and kissed her. In that moment Beth new that this is where she wanted to be. Jack took her hand and walked over to the trunk pulled out a secret compartment and showed her a school picture from when they were young on the back was a note to Beth.
He read it, “Dear Beth I have loved you ever since the first day of school when you walked in and said now where do I sit in your preppy tone. I remember I gave you my seat and sat in the corner until they got a new desk. And the day when you strolled in the door of the school with you low cut dress from the east the way it made you like a queen from the books you would always read. Then the day of the fair when I asked you to dance and you said you might be bad at it. The thing you did not know was I had no idea how to dance I really wanted to walk with you over to the stable and give you a ride over to my new job as sheriff. But then you move away to Boston so you could act. I love you and want you to come home. Love Jack.”
He looked over to see a tear rolling down her cheek. She looked up and smiled with her whole heart as another tear began to form see wiped her eyes. In Beth’s heart was an empty place which was now filled almost to the over flowing point.
“I was going to sent it but I knew I had to go up and get you myself,” Said Jack in his soft tone.
“You really have loved me since I was twelve?”
“Yeah I really have even though I was two years older than you.”
“And that dress from New York you thought I looked beautiful.”
“Yeah, why did you stop wearing it?”
“I thought you did not like it you never said anything”
“You wore that dress it impress me?”
“Yeah I would have done anything for you but then Marie came and she got your attention. Was she your finance?”
“I loved her not as much as you but I gave upon us, when you moved away and broke my heart.”
“I move to run away from seeing you and Marie. I could not bear to see the man I loved with another girl. I knew I could not compete with her beauty.” Beth said then it got quiet Beth stood up and walked over to the bed and laid down. Jack soon followed; he took her hands and showed her where to find clothes to sleep in.
As she looked around it was a small room filled with clothes, some lace, satin, and silk. She picked out a thin dress with lace on the top and bottom. Pearls flowed down each side of the dress. It was a light purple witch made her skin look so smooth and delicate. She took her curly blonde hair down from her braid and let it flow down on the right side of her chest.
She walked out of the small room through the bedroom and in to the living room. Jack was stoking the fire. Beth found the bucket of water, pored some into a kettle put it by the fire to boil. Jack went out to get more firewood for the night. Beth scooted his frail futon in front of the fire and sat on it reading Romeo and Juliet. Jack walked put the wood by the fire and stood tall.
“O Romeo, Romeo! Wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name.
Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love
And I'll no longer be a Capulet,” Said Jack.
“You read this book?”
“Yeah it is your favorite.”
“Aawww that is so sweet. Do you want to sit?”
“Yeah if you really want me to.”
“Oh trust me I do. Really”
“Let us read it I read some then you then me ok.”
“Fine with me.”
So Beth and Jack read all night while sitting by the fire drinking hot coco. Shakespeare would be proud to know his book made another relationship stronger.
“True, I talk of dreams, which are the children of an idle brain, Begot of nothing but vain fantasy. Which is as thin of substance as the air; and more inconstant than the wind, who wooes even now the frozen bosom of the north, and, being anger’d, puffs away from thence, turning his face to the dew-dropping south.”
Thursday, August 4, 2011
The Beauty of Life, Chances That we Miss.
Amazing chances are thrown our way everyday, but most of them we do not take. They just fly by us. Why don't we take the opertunites to talk to people, help someone in need, go to church, or vist our loved ones. We value time so much, yet we don't spend it doing the things we really should be doing.
I went through a time in my life when all that mattered was getting boys attention. Or acting cool, being rich, but none of that matters in the long terms. The things and people we love are what matter. I love swimming, especially teaching swim. I love seeing the kids learn to swim. Being able to hold them and building that sence of trust. I love when they say hi to me or give me hugs. When their parents introduce themselves to me, I feel wanted and needed. It gives such a big sence of fullfillmelnt.
I also love to draw. When my head is crowded and nothing seems right, I love just expressing myself on paper. It makes everything make sence and just puts the pieces together even if it is for that moment. Life flows more on paper.
I learned a while ago that family really anf truely matters. I used to not ever want to go to my grandparents house or even spend time with my family. But the truth is they do matter more than anything. Take times to talk to them and show love to them.
I hope all of you can charish life. Tell me ways that ya'll do?
May the Lord bless you.
I went through a time in my life when all that mattered was getting boys attention. Or acting cool, being rich, but none of that matters in the long terms. The things and people we love are what matter. I love swimming, especially teaching swim. I love seeing the kids learn to swim. Being able to hold them and building that sence of trust. I love when they say hi to me or give me hugs. When their parents introduce themselves to me, I feel wanted and needed. It gives such a big sence of fullfillmelnt.
I also love to draw. When my head is crowded and nothing seems right, I love just expressing myself on paper. It makes everything make sence and just puts the pieces together even if it is for that moment. Life flows more on paper.
I learned a while ago that family really anf truely matters. I used to not ever want to go to my grandparents house or even spend time with my family. But the truth is they do matter more than anything. Take times to talk to them and show love to them.
I hope all of you can charish life. Tell me ways that ya'll do?
May the Lord bless you.
The Sweet Songs of Love.
You and Tequila
Remind Me
Just A Kiss
I love these songs. They are so romantic!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Eyes?
We all have 2 eyes. They see everything. The eye is an amazing organ. With out eyes you wouldn't be reading me blog, would you? See how important they are. Some eyes are blurry and need lenses to help them out. Some eyes can't see color. Some eyes only barly work. I know a girl with only 7% vision in one eye and is blind in the other one yet she is a better swimmer than I am. Amazing right?
Eye color is a polygenic phenotypic character and is determined by the amount and type of pigments in the eye's iris. Humans and other animals have many phenotypic variations in eye color, as blue, brown, gray, green, and others. These variations constitute phenotypic traits.
Eyes Open by Jason Mraz
When You Look me in the Eyes by Jonas Brothers
Can't Take My Eyes off You by Lady Antebellum
Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson
Brown Eyes by Beyonce
They even have music about eyes. Did you know most people look for beautiful eyes when trying to find a mate?
Well anyways I just wanted to take this moment and show all of you how much eyes matter
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
What to do When Nothing Seems right?.
Psalm 39
David had been through so much. Running away from Solomen who wanted to kill him. He would have faces hunger, depression, sicknesses, wild animals, enemies of his nation not to mention the enemies from his own nations, and just feeling like God left him and everything he did was wrong. Half the time he wanted to die. It is true most of us will not face that much at the same time in our lives but we do have problems of our own that make us feel like everything we do is completely wrong. What do you do then? Pray call out to God. Tell him how you feel. Ask him to show his unfailing love to you.
2 Chronicles 7:14
14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Our God is a God who can fogive and forget. He loves us more than anything but we need to pray and show him how humble we are. It takes work I hate to admit it but its not easy sometimes it's really hard but in the end it is worth it. To have someone who loves you no matter what you do.
Matthew 6:5
5 “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full.
Prayer is not a way to show off. I has to be from the heart. It is not bad to pray at church or on the street corners, but what is the main reason you are doing it. Is it so that cute girl at church that sits two rows infront of you will see? Cause we all know she is a "God Girl". Or is it so you can talk to God?
Romans 8:26
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
At times I find it hard to pray. I always wonder what to say. Do I start with "Dear Lord" "Almighty God I am here" "Dear Jesus" "Hey their um God" "Whats up Lord". But does it matter what you start with no. I matters what you say durning your pray and how your heart feels. God will never judge. As you pray you will know what to say and when you do, you know that is the Holy Spirit guiding you.
Have you ever tried memorizing a verse? Well let me challenge you to memorize this one. Or if you are a dare devil I DARE you to memorise this one. It is short. Go for it!
1 Thessalonians 5:16-17
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually,
May God's Blessing be shown in you life to all who read this. May you see that life is more than chances.
David had been through so much. Running away from Solomen who wanted to kill him. He would have faces hunger, depression, sicknesses, wild animals, enemies of his nation not to mention the enemies from his own nations, and just feeling like God left him and everything he did was wrong. Half the time he wanted to die. It is true most of us will not face that much at the same time in our lives but we do have problems of our own that make us feel like everything we do is completely wrong. What do you do then? Pray call out to God. Tell him how you feel. Ask him to show his unfailing love to you.
2 Chronicles 7:14
14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Our God is a God who can fogive and forget. He loves us more than anything but we need to pray and show him how humble we are. It takes work I hate to admit it but its not easy sometimes it's really hard but in the end it is worth it. To have someone who loves you no matter what you do.
Matthew 6:5
5 “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full.
Prayer is not a way to show off. I has to be from the heart. It is not bad to pray at church or on the street corners, but what is the main reason you are doing it. Is it so that cute girl at church that sits two rows infront of you will see? Cause we all know she is a "God Girl". Or is it so you can talk to God?
Romans 8:26
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
At times I find it hard to pray. I always wonder what to say. Do I start with "Dear Lord" "Almighty God I am here" "Dear Jesus" "Hey their um God" "Whats up Lord". But does it matter what you start with no. I matters what you say durning your pray and how your heart feels. God will never judge. As you pray you will know what to say and when you do, you know that is the Holy Spirit guiding you.
Have you ever tried memorizing a verse? Well let me challenge you to memorize this one. Or if you are a dare devil I DARE you to memorise this one. It is short. Go for it!
1 Thessalonians 5:16-17
16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually,
May God's Blessing be shown in you life to all who read this. May you see that life is more than chances.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
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Wednesday, July 20, 2011
So I got a new story!! My Love Story! Part 1
Chapter 1
The whistle blew for the last time to get on the train; newlywed Beth Potter climbed aboard with her husband Jack hoping this is what she really wants to do. The conductor says all aboard that’s coming aboard then the train pulled to a start. Slowly the train gets fast, so that you can not see the Boston train station anymore.
The sun was just starting to rise Beth looked up to see deer running across the field outside her window. Then she heard a sweet little voice singing; “Doe’s eat oats and mares eat oats a little lamb eats ivy a kidd’ll eat ivy too wouldn’t you?” the soft sweet voice made Beth feel a little more comfortable. She was going to Texas where she grew up with Jack who was now her husband. But she though it was strange how he came up to Boston to marry her and take her to Texas where he was sheriff. Why now, they grew up in school together he had his chance back then. While her mind was racing she thought where does he live? Will I see my parents? I bet they think I am crazy to marry a man with out there attendance.
Beth looked over to see Jack awake. In Beth’s soft tone she said, “How long will it talk to get home?”
“About three more hours why?”
“Well I was. Never mind why did you come get me in Boston?”
“I missed you and wanted to spend the rest of our lives together.”
“What happened in town while I was gone? I heard you became the sheriff when I was there but I left to soon to see you in your badge.”
“I built a house out of adobe and furnished it. I am the sheriff of El Elizario. You will love it there it has changed a lot since we were kids. We have a dress store from the east I know you will love it. We also have a mayor we got him this month he is your dad Mayor Mathew Seamore.”
“Really! He did not tell me that in his letters. My dad Mayor wow! That is great! Do you like being the sheriff?”
“Yeah it pays well and it is full of adventure.”
“You always loved adventure. Remember the time you and Jeremy swam in the river with snakes just because Leila dared you to.”
“Hahaha, she had a way of flirting with guys to get what she wanted. We also though if she wanted us to do it other girls would to such as you.”
“What does Jeremy do now?”
“He learned to sew dresses he owns the New York dress shop.”
“Is he married?”
“No he said there is a shortage of girls in El Elizario but we got a ton they are just older.”
Then it stared to get silent Beth slowly went back to sleep dreaming of the place she would be in soon. As Beth was sleeping the train pulled into the half way point for dinner. Jack shook Beth for a while until she woke up. They stepped out of the train and walked to a small restaurant called Mary Apple Blue. They had amazing fried chicken and bread. Then they walked over to a little shop and got some mints for the rest of the ride home.
As they walked back to the train Beth said, “Will we get home before dark?”
“I do not think so because the train was not supposed to make a stop and we will arrive now at the train station at four it takes an hour and a half to get to El Elizario from there.” Said Jack.
“Oh well what will we do until then I can not sleep anymore.”
“Well you can tell me about acting in Boston.”
“Ok. The first play I was in was A Midsummer’s Night Dream; I was Helena the second main love interest.”
On and on it went like this until they got to the train station. They got off and ran to the buggy with Jeremy driving. The face Jeremy gave Beth was priceless. He look so astonish they laughed at Jeremy as they got on the buggy.
“Wow Bethy you are so grown up,” Jeremy said.
“Thank you Jerry man. I guess I can say the same for you,” Beth replied.
“So let us go home,” Jack said.
“So Jeremy Miller what have you been doing?” Beth said.
“Well I have been making dresses like crazy. You need to come buy one soon I have got just the thing. I like to call French dreamers lady. Made with blue fabric and tight around the bust and loose on the edges made for ball or a late night stroll for an amazing woman.”
“Well I will need to come over soon with money.”
The time just rolled by as the three friends talked about life, old times, romance, and the town. They had been friends since school. They always sat together at lunch and went for walks after school.
The whistle blew for the last time to get on the train; newlywed Beth Potter climbed aboard with her husband Jack hoping this is what she really wants to do. The conductor says all aboard that’s coming aboard then the train pulled to a start. Slowly the train gets fast, so that you can not see the Boston train station anymore.
The sun was just starting to rise Beth looked up to see deer running across the field outside her window. Then she heard a sweet little voice singing; “Doe’s eat oats and mares eat oats a little lamb eats ivy a kidd’ll eat ivy too wouldn’t you?” the soft sweet voice made Beth feel a little more comfortable. She was going to Texas where she grew up with Jack who was now her husband. But she though it was strange how he came up to Boston to marry her and take her to Texas where he was sheriff. Why now, they grew up in school together he had his chance back then. While her mind was racing she thought where does he live? Will I see my parents? I bet they think I am crazy to marry a man with out there attendance.
Beth looked over to see Jack awake. In Beth’s soft tone she said, “How long will it talk to get home?”
“About three more hours why?”
“Well I was. Never mind why did you come get me in Boston?”
“I missed you and wanted to spend the rest of our lives together.”
“What happened in town while I was gone? I heard you became the sheriff when I was there but I left to soon to see you in your badge.”
“I built a house out of adobe and furnished it. I am the sheriff of El Elizario. You will love it there it has changed a lot since we were kids. We have a dress store from the east I know you will love it. We also have a mayor we got him this month he is your dad Mayor Mathew Seamore.”
“Really! He did not tell me that in his letters. My dad Mayor wow! That is great! Do you like being the sheriff?”
“Yeah it pays well and it is full of adventure.”
“You always loved adventure. Remember the time you and Jeremy swam in the river with snakes just because Leila dared you to.”
“Hahaha, she had a way of flirting with guys to get what she wanted. We also though if she wanted us to do it other girls would to such as you.”
“What does Jeremy do now?”
“He learned to sew dresses he owns the New York dress shop.”
“Is he married?”
“No he said there is a shortage of girls in El Elizario but we got a ton they are just older.”
Then it stared to get silent Beth slowly went back to sleep dreaming of the place she would be in soon. As Beth was sleeping the train pulled into the half way point for dinner. Jack shook Beth for a while until she woke up. They stepped out of the train and walked to a small restaurant called Mary Apple Blue. They had amazing fried chicken and bread. Then they walked over to a little shop and got some mints for the rest of the ride home.
As they walked back to the train Beth said, “Will we get home before dark?”
“I do not think so because the train was not supposed to make a stop and we will arrive now at the train station at four it takes an hour and a half to get to El Elizario from there.” Said Jack.
“Oh well what will we do until then I can not sleep anymore.”
“Well you can tell me about acting in Boston.”
“Ok. The first play I was in was A Midsummer’s Night Dream; I was Helena the second main love interest.”
On and on it went like this until they got to the train station. They got off and ran to the buggy with Jeremy driving. The face Jeremy gave Beth was priceless. He look so astonish they laughed at Jeremy as they got on the buggy.
“Wow Bethy you are so grown up,” Jeremy said.
“Thank you Jerry man. I guess I can say the same for you,” Beth replied.
“So let us go home,” Jack said.
“So Jeremy Miller what have you been doing?” Beth said.
“Well I have been making dresses like crazy. You need to come buy one soon I have got just the thing. I like to call French dreamers lady. Made with blue fabric and tight around the bust and loose on the edges made for ball or a late night stroll for an amazing woman.”
“Well I will need to come over soon with money.”
The time just rolled by as the three friends talked about life, old times, romance, and the town. They had been friends since school. They always sat together at lunch and went for walks after school.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Funny Fashion
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Return Your Heart To The Lord.
Joel 2:12-17
We have all sinned. This fact we all know is true. But when you are lost and away from God, how do you come back?
12-"Return to me with all your heart." God says to fast, weep(cry), and mourn. But why? Fast because you know God is more important than yourself. Weep because you know you did wrong. And mourn that you spent that presious time away from God.
13-What does the verse say about God? How do those things make you feel?
16-This is a big deal 'coming to the LORD' tell people. Share it.
Matthew 4:17
Acts 2:38-39
Romans 10:9
Philipians 2:9-11
1 John 1:9
What significance do these verses have?
We have all sinned. This fact we all know is true. But when you are lost and away from God, how do you come back?
12-"Return to me with all your heart." God says to fast, weep(cry), and mourn. But why? Fast because you know God is more important than yourself. Weep because you know you did wrong. And mourn that you spent that presious time away from God.
13-What does the verse say about God? How do those things make you feel?
16-This is a big deal 'coming to the LORD' tell people. Share it.
Matthew 4:17
Acts 2:38-39
Romans 10:9
Philipians 2:9-11
1 John 1:9
What significance do these verses have?
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Part 5 Of My Story:)
November 8, 2010 3pm In bed with a tear stained face.
When Ben got out of the shower, we started watching music videos on youtube and one was to the song “Love the Way You Lie” but Eminem feat. Rihanna. And it was of an abusive relationship. Memories flooded through my head of my mom getting punched and thrown on the ground. I was around three and this man was hurting her I was just sitting there watching it. Then he came to me and picked me up and shook me telling me that my mom was a bitch and how he should kill her. And then he threw me on ground. Ran to her and slapped her over and over she was crying and yelling at God to help her. And I was on the ground bleeding while tears ran down my face.
After a while he left. My mom was bruised and bleeding her face was swollen. My arms were bleeding. Then the memories stopped coming and just repeated them selves. I started crying. Ben looked at me and my tear stained face with streaks of mascara running down my cheeks. He looked so confused.
“What’s wrong Blake? Why are you crying?” He said in a loving tone. I just sat there crying, shaking my head. I did not know if it was real or not. But it felt so true. This was the first time I had ever remembered this.
Ben grabbed my hands and walked me over to his bed and we laid there. I was crying still hard as ever. Then they finally slowed down after about ten minutes. I told him what I remembered.
“Hey it was probably just your brain going wild. Trust me no one could ever hurt you or your mom.” He said as I cried. Then more memories came. The man was in a room with me and he shoved me up against the wall he had a pair of scissors in his hand. He opened then and pulled my shirt off and cut my back. I was so little. It hurt like hell.
“I just remembered more. The man came in my room when I was younger and he shoved me up against the wall he had a pair of scissors in his hand. He opened then and pull my shirt off and cut my back. Its true. I was so little, so little.” I sat there repeating I was so little. Ben grabbed me and pulled me into his lap and put his arms around me. It was so sweet and comforting.
“If he did cut you that bad wouldn’t you have a scar?”
“Yeah, I am pretty sure I do. My mom told me that its was a birth mark and it was fine all kids have it and said it would go away. So I paid little attention to it.”
“Well look. And then you will know if it’s true. I doubt it is.”
I stepped off his bed took my tank top off and turned around so he could see my back. I know it might seem bad but I needed to know. I had a bra on so he did not see anything. He stood up and looked at my back. He sighed as though there was a scar. Then he put his hand on my back and traced the shape of then scar. It was a heart with an X on top of it.
“Yeah you have one. It’s a heart with and X over it. I cant believe some man would do this to you. I don’t know what to say Blake. I am so sorry. If I ever meet this man I will kill him. He had no right to do this to you.”
I turned around and said, “I know why he did it. He said I deserved no love.”
“You deserve all the love in this whole world.”
He pulled me in and hugged me. His hands were on my bare back it felt so good. After that I put my pink tank top back on. He took me on his bike and we went down to Sallys Beauty Supplies and he bought rine stones that had glue that stayed on skin for over 2 weeks. He said it was a surprise what they were for.
Now I am in my room still sad and crying a little bit. Ben had to go feed the dogs. And when he comes back he said he will show me what the rine stones are for. I cant wait to see. Lol I mean what is he gonna do with them and why all of the sudden. He is hilarious. Man he sure does make me smile a lot.
November 9, 2010 2am In bed.:)
After Ben fed the dogs, he came up stairs to my room and in his hand were the rhinestones and a wash cloth. And he stated to explain.
“Ok so what we are going to do is the rhinestones are going to go on top of you scare and ill make them into the shape of a heart. They will stay on for about a month. I think it will look pretty cool.”
“Ok go ahead have fun.”
So I took my shirt off and laid on the bed. Ok I know you are thinking OMG she is such a slut but no I am not. I really didn’t feel bad about it. I was wearing a sports bra. People run with them on, ON THE HIGH WAY!! So I was fine with it and so was he. He grabbed the rhinestones one by one and placed them on my back. It felt kinda weird cause he was like working right on top of me.
“So what do you want to do this afternoon, Blake?”
“Oh I want to have a swim party. Haha”
“Ok, we can invite Myles, Jesse, and Connor. We had fun together last time right?”
“Haha I was really just kidding but yeah lets do it.”
OK guys so that is all I have written. Tell me your ideas of where you want me to take this story next. Other challenges she should go through? What things are you going through?
When Ben got out of the shower, we started watching music videos on youtube and one was to the song “Love the Way You Lie” but Eminem feat. Rihanna. And it was of an abusive relationship. Memories flooded through my head of my mom getting punched and thrown on the ground. I was around three and this man was hurting her I was just sitting there watching it. Then he came to me and picked me up and shook me telling me that my mom was a bitch and how he should kill her. And then he threw me on ground. Ran to her and slapped her over and over she was crying and yelling at God to help her. And I was on the ground bleeding while tears ran down my face.
After a while he left. My mom was bruised and bleeding her face was swollen. My arms were bleeding. Then the memories stopped coming and just repeated them selves. I started crying. Ben looked at me and my tear stained face with streaks of mascara running down my cheeks. He looked so confused.
“What’s wrong Blake? Why are you crying?” He said in a loving tone. I just sat there crying, shaking my head. I did not know if it was real or not. But it felt so true. This was the first time I had ever remembered this.
Ben grabbed my hands and walked me over to his bed and we laid there. I was crying still hard as ever. Then they finally slowed down after about ten minutes. I told him what I remembered.
“Hey it was probably just your brain going wild. Trust me no one could ever hurt you or your mom.” He said as I cried. Then more memories came. The man was in a room with me and he shoved me up against the wall he had a pair of scissors in his hand. He opened then and pulled my shirt off and cut my back. I was so little. It hurt like hell.
“I just remembered more. The man came in my room when I was younger and he shoved me up against the wall he had a pair of scissors in his hand. He opened then and pull my shirt off and cut my back. Its true. I was so little, so little.” I sat there repeating I was so little. Ben grabbed me and pulled me into his lap and put his arms around me. It was so sweet and comforting.
“If he did cut you that bad wouldn’t you have a scar?”
“Yeah, I am pretty sure I do. My mom told me that its was a birth mark and it was fine all kids have it and said it would go away. So I paid little attention to it.”
“Well look. And then you will know if it’s true. I doubt it is.”
I stepped off his bed took my tank top off and turned around so he could see my back. I know it might seem bad but I needed to know. I had a bra on so he did not see anything. He stood up and looked at my back. He sighed as though there was a scar. Then he put his hand on my back and traced the shape of then scar. It was a heart with an X on top of it.
“Yeah you have one. It’s a heart with and X over it. I cant believe some man would do this to you. I don’t know what to say Blake. I am so sorry. If I ever meet this man I will kill him. He had no right to do this to you.”
I turned around and said, “I know why he did it. He said I deserved no love.”
“You deserve all the love in this whole world.”
He pulled me in and hugged me. His hands were on my bare back it felt so good. After that I put my pink tank top back on. He took me on his bike and we went down to Sallys Beauty Supplies and he bought rine stones that had glue that stayed on skin for over 2 weeks. He said it was a surprise what they were for.
Now I am in my room still sad and crying a little bit. Ben had to go feed the dogs. And when he comes back he said he will show me what the rine stones are for. I cant wait to see. Lol I mean what is he gonna do with them and why all of the sudden. He is hilarious. Man he sure does make me smile a lot.
November 9, 2010 2am In bed.:)
After Ben fed the dogs, he came up stairs to my room and in his hand were the rhinestones and a wash cloth. And he stated to explain.
“Ok so what we are going to do is the rhinestones are going to go on top of you scare and ill make them into the shape of a heart. They will stay on for about a month. I think it will look pretty cool.”
“Ok go ahead have fun.”
So I took my shirt off and laid on the bed. Ok I know you are thinking OMG she is such a slut but no I am not. I really didn’t feel bad about it. I was wearing a sports bra. People run with them on, ON THE HIGH WAY!! So I was fine with it and so was he. He grabbed the rhinestones one by one and placed them on my back. It felt kinda weird cause he was like working right on top of me.
“So what do you want to do this afternoon, Blake?”
“Oh I want to have a swim party. Haha”
“Ok, we can invite Myles, Jesse, and Connor. We had fun together last time right?”
“Haha I was really just kidding but yeah lets do it.”
OK guys so that is all I have written. Tell me your ideas of where you want me to take this story next. Other challenges she should go through? What things are you going through?
A Woman Worthy Of Praise: Proverbs 31
Proverbs 31:10-31
10-She has value and is like a "Diamond in the ruff".
11-She has every notable value.(Good)
12-She has good intent toward her husband and not selfish desires.
13-She is a hard worker.
14-She is exotic.
15-She cares for the lower people.
16-She has business knowledge.
20-She helps others.
21-"Clothed in scarlet" Scarlet is a Persian color. It symbolyses riches.
22-Her family is well provided for. purple means royalty. Symbolizing she is valued and highly thought of.
23-Her husband respects her.
24-She makes things with her own hands.
25-"Strength and dignity" Dignity-The quality or state of being worthy of esteem or respect.
26-She speaks the right things.
27-She is not lazy.
28-Her children love and appreciate her. Her husband knows he is blessed by her.
29-Her husband honors her.
30-"But a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised".
31-She is praised by all.
10-She has value and is like a "Diamond in the ruff".
11-She has every notable value.(Good)
12-She has good intent toward her husband and not selfish desires.
13-She is a hard worker.
14-She is exotic.
15-She cares for the lower people.
16-She has business knowledge.
20-She helps others.
21-"Clothed in scarlet" Scarlet is a Persian color. It symbolyses riches.
22-Her family is well provided for. purple means royalty. Symbolizing she is valued and highly thought of.
23-Her husband respects her.
24-She makes things with her own hands.
25-"Strength and dignity" Dignity-The quality or state of being worthy of esteem or respect.
26-She speaks the right things.
27-She is not lazy.
28-Her children love and appreciate her. Her husband knows he is blessed by her.
29-Her husband honors her.
30-"But a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised".
31-She is praised by all.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Unconditional Love!
This song has been on my heart for awhile. Shouldn't love be like this? Whether you leave or not. To where you care about someone unconditionally, not matter what.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9p5TZGwmRpU
Just like Beauty and The Beast. The book shows the unconditional love more so.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9p5TZGwmRpU
The ultimate lesson all of us have to learn is unconditional love, which includes not only others but ourselves as well.
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Just like Beauty and The Beast. The book shows the unconditional love more so.
Part 4 of My Story!!:)
November 6, 2010 2 p.m. In Ben’s guest bedroom.
Tonight was so fun! When Ben came home from the doctor we went outside and Myles(A really cute blonde skater), Jesse(Skater from India he looks like Salem from Slumdog Millionaire) and Connor(Skater he looks just like Justin Bieber) came over. We hung out and talked and they skated. They were all flirting with me. Here is some of our conversation.
MYLES-Blake, I heard what Jaycee did today. Don’t take it personally she is a butt.
CONNOR-Oh yeah I heard about that. SO is anything going on?
BLAKE(me)-Uuumm no.
BEN-Gosh guys! She is just staying at my house for the weekend.
JESSE-Wow that honestly sounds kinda bad.
BEN-Oh my gosh it does. But trust me nothing will happen.
JESSE-So you two have like known each other forever. Have you really like never kissed her or anything. I sure would.
At this time I was like wow these guy don’t care what they say. Then Jesse came and sat down right beside me and our hips were touching. I could totally feel a vibe. I mean and he looked good, he was in a tank top.
BEN-No I have not kissed her.
MYLES-Crap! I just broke my finger.
Myles’ finger was like 3 inches round and blue. Ben ran inside and got an ice pack and Myles came and set on the other sit of me. And his hip was touching mine and he laid his head on my shoulder.
JESSE-Gosh Myles your finger is huge. I bet you want Blake to kiss it.
MYLES-Oh yeah you know it!
BEN-Gosh guys! She is a good girl don’t ruin her record.
CONNOR-Oh so she has a good record. That is my type of girl.
BALKE-Wow guys I am not that type of a girl. Or at least I try not to be.
Jesse leaned over put he head on my shoulder and whispers in my ear ‘Hey you are pretty hot babe’. Wow this is a guy over load.
MYLES-Blake my finger hurts will you kiss it?
BLAKE-Wow. Ok only because you are hurt.
So I leaned over and kissed him finger very lightly.
JESSE-I think I am going to bust my lips open so I can get a kiss. Hahaha.
Yeah that type of stuff went on for two hours. But I liked it. I mean it was kinda weird to talk to guy like that but it was fun. Then Mrs. Johnston told us it was dinner time. We all ate dinner together it was really fun. And then we heard the doorbell and it was Keith Johnston he came home from collage. It was a complete surprise. Everyone was hugging while I was sitting at the table just watching. Then Keith nodded my way and was like Ben you did good. And Ben was like we are not dating she is just staying the weekend. Then Keith said oh so now you have a live in girl friend. Ben started blushing and Mrs. Johnston explained the whole thing.
After dinner me and Ben went to his room and started watching Get Smart. I was sitting on the floor and he was on the bed. I did not really feel comfortable being on a bed with I guy with out him letting me. But then he was like Blake come sit up here with me. So I did and he has a queen bed but we were still a couple inches away from each other. I liked it. Then in the middle of the movie he looked at me and I looked at him. He leaned over put his hand on my cheek and slipped it backwards and turned my head and kissed my cheek. Then he looked me in the eyes and smiled. I smiled and just kept looking in his eyes we were like this for a minute until Keith came barging into Ben’s room and was all like what is going on in here. We told him we were just watching a movie but he did not believe us.
AAAAHHH I can’t believe he kissed me well on the cheek but I am so happy! But I also feel bad I mean I like Bobby too. Wow being a teenager is confusing. But I like it being confusing it makes it fun.
Well after Keith left we finished the movie. It was really good. Then we just set on his bed and talked. Then his mom said we have to get our pj’s on so he told me to put mine on and wait outside if he is not done. So I ran to my room and put on my sweatpants and tank top. Then his door was open, so I went in and he was wearing plaid fleece pants and a grey tank top. He was so hot.
He was on his bed so I slid on the bed and sat by him. We talked about school and sports. Then he asked me if I really liked Bobby and I sat there and just though. After a while I replied yes I like him but I am a little confused. Then he asked me why. And I said because I kinda like you but I really like him. He said he felt the same way but Bobby was a girl that went to our school. Then we talked about how when we were little we would play princess and prairie.
Me and Ben have a lot of history and I mean we have gotten married twice, of course it was pretend, but it meant something. Then it got late and I stood up and he stood up and walked me to my room and gave me a goodnight hug. He is the best friend I have ever had. So here I am now touching my cheek over and over and my arms. I mean he kissed my cheek then he gives me a hug in a tank top. We both had bare arms! But it felt really good.
November 7, 2010 8 a.m. Sitting on my bed. (well the one at Ben’s house)
I just got out of the shower. I know it is really early for a Saturday but I can’t sleep later then seven. I don’t know why but I just can’t. Ben is still asleep. I still can’t believe Ben kissed me. I want to tell someone but then people will think something is really happening between us. I mean I guess something is happening between us. But it is a personal think that me and him need to talk about.
Gosh Keith is up I hear him down stairs. I think he is cooking breakfast. I am so hungry! But I don’t really want to go down there with Keith I don’t know him well enough yet. Keith is so funny I love him last night he kept making jokes about Ben and me like we were a thing. He made us laugh so hard and blush.
Oh I hear Ben he is going into the bathroom that our bedrooms are joined with. Kinda weird right? I mean he could just come in my room. Wow he is loud gosh he is playing music. I love this song it is Replay by Iyaz. I am so bored right now I am throwing a small ball on the wall then catching it then throwing it over and over. I hope I do not break anything.
Mrs. Johnston keeps her house really clean I mean this room is spotless I mean nothing is dirty. And the bathroom is perfect. The room I am in is so pretty. The bed is so comfortable and soft. It is like heaven.
Ben is in the shower now lol. I feel so weird knowing that. I mean I should not know when my “GUY” best friend is in the shower. But it is kinda cool. Wow I think way to much. But it clams me and then again annoys me.
Tonight was so fun! When Ben came home from the doctor we went outside and Myles(A really cute blonde skater), Jesse(Skater from India he looks like Salem from Slumdog Millionaire) and Connor(Skater he looks just like Justin Bieber) came over. We hung out and talked and they skated. They were all flirting with me. Here is some of our conversation.
MYLES-Blake, I heard what Jaycee did today. Don’t take it personally she is a butt.
CONNOR-Oh yeah I heard about that. SO is anything going on?
BLAKE(me)-Uuumm no.
BEN-Gosh guys! She is just staying at my house for the weekend.
JESSE-Wow that honestly sounds kinda bad.
BEN-Oh my gosh it does. But trust me nothing will happen.
JESSE-So you two have like known each other forever. Have you really like never kissed her or anything. I sure would.
At this time I was like wow these guy don’t care what they say. Then Jesse came and sat down right beside me and our hips were touching. I could totally feel a vibe. I mean and he looked good, he was in a tank top.
BEN-No I have not kissed her.
MYLES-Crap! I just broke my finger.
Myles’ finger was like 3 inches round and blue. Ben ran inside and got an ice pack and Myles came and set on the other sit of me. And his hip was touching mine and he laid his head on my shoulder.
JESSE-Gosh Myles your finger is huge. I bet you want Blake to kiss it.
MYLES-Oh yeah you know it!
BEN-Gosh guys! She is a good girl don’t ruin her record.
CONNOR-Oh so she has a good record. That is my type of girl.
BALKE-Wow guys I am not that type of a girl. Or at least I try not to be.
Jesse leaned over put he head on my shoulder and whispers in my ear ‘Hey you are pretty hot babe’. Wow this is a guy over load.
MYLES-Blake my finger hurts will you kiss it?
BLAKE-Wow. Ok only because you are hurt.
So I leaned over and kissed him finger very lightly.
JESSE-I think I am going to bust my lips open so I can get a kiss. Hahaha.
Yeah that type of stuff went on for two hours. But I liked it. I mean it was kinda weird to talk to guy like that but it was fun. Then Mrs. Johnston told us it was dinner time. We all ate dinner together it was really fun. And then we heard the doorbell and it was Keith Johnston he came home from collage. It was a complete surprise. Everyone was hugging while I was sitting at the table just watching. Then Keith nodded my way and was like Ben you did good. And Ben was like we are not dating she is just staying the weekend. Then Keith said oh so now you have a live in girl friend. Ben started blushing and Mrs. Johnston explained the whole thing.
After dinner me and Ben went to his room and started watching Get Smart. I was sitting on the floor and he was on the bed. I did not really feel comfortable being on a bed with I guy with out him letting me. But then he was like Blake come sit up here with me. So I did and he has a queen bed but we were still a couple inches away from each other. I liked it. Then in the middle of the movie he looked at me and I looked at him. He leaned over put his hand on my cheek and slipped it backwards and turned my head and kissed my cheek. Then he looked me in the eyes and smiled. I smiled and just kept looking in his eyes we were like this for a minute until Keith came barging into Ben’s room and was all like what is going on in here. We told him we were just watching a movie but he did not believe us.
AAAAHHH I can’t believe he kissed me well on the cheek but I am so happy! But I also feel bad I mean I like Bobby too. Wow being a teenager is confusing. But I like it being confusing it makes it fun.
Well after Keith left we finished the movie. It was really good. Then we just set on his bed and talked. Then his mom said we have to get our pj’s on so he told me to put mine on and wait outside if he is not done. So I ran to my room and put on my sweatpants and tank top. Then his door was open, so I went in and he was wearing plaid fleece pants and a grey tank top. He was so hot.
He was on his bed so I slid on the bed and sat by him. We talked about school and sports. Then he asked me if I really liked Bobby and I sat there and just though. After a while I replied yes I like him but I am a little confused. Then he asked me why. And I said because I kinda like you but I really like him. He said he felt the same way but Bobby was a girl that went to our school. Then we talked about how when we were little we would play princess and prairie.
Me and Ben have a lot of history and I mean we have gotten married twice, of course it was pretend, but it meant something. Then it got late and I stood up and he stood up and walked me to my room and gave me a goodnight hug. He is the best friend I have ever had. So here I am now touching my cheek over and over and my arms. I mean he kissed my cheek then he gives me a hug in a tank top. We both had bare arms! But it felt really good.
November 7, 2010 8 a.m. Sitting on my bed. (well the one at Ben’s house)
I just got out of the shower. I know it is really early for a Saturday but I can’t sleep later then seven. I don’t know why but I just can’t. Ben is still asleep. I still can’t believe Ben kissed me. I want to tell someone but then people will think something is really happening between us. I mean I guess something is happening between us. But it is a personal think that me and him need to talk about.
Gosh Keith is up I hear him down stairs. I think he is cooking breakfast. I am so hungry! But I don’t really want to go down there with Keith I don’t know him well enough yet. Keith is so funny I love him last night he kept making jokes about Ben and me like we were a thing. He made us laugh so hard and blush.
Oh I hear Ben he is going into the bathroom that our bedrooms are joined with. Kinda weird right? I mean he could just come in my room. Wow he is loud gosh he is playing music. I love this song it is Replay by Iyaz. I am so bored right now I am throwing a small ball on the wall then catching it then throwing it over and over. I hope I do not break anything.
Mrs. Johnston keeps her house really clean I mean this room is spotless I mean nothing is dirty. And the bathroom is perfect. The room I am in is so pretty. The bed is so comfortable and soft. It is like heaven.
Ben is in the shower now lol. I feel so weird knowing that. I mean I should not know when my “GUY” best friend is in the shower. But it is kinda cool. Wow I think way to much. But it clams me and then again annoys me.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Pain!
“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.” ~Meridith Grey
Pain sucks. It's as simple as that. It's not fun or enjoyable. It hurts you and the people around you. What helps ya'll endure pain??
Pain sucks. It's as simple as that. It's not fun or enjoyable. It hurts you and the people around you. What helps ya'll endure pain??
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
So this post is just for the girls!
So I know we all love designing stuff: Outfits, our rooms, our locker, even the guys we want to date. Here are some of my favorite cheep clothes.
Wood Ring Tribe Tube
$18.99
From Rue 21
Southside
$25
From Holister
Juniors Op String Bikini Top & Bottoms
$12
From Walmart
Wood Ring Tribe Tube
$18.99
From Rue 21
Southside
$25
From Holister
Juniors Op String Bikini Top & Bottoms
$12
From Walmart
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Being Able to Endure Hard Times.
I am on a swim team and we have to do long and hard work outs. They push us to our limits. There is no way to get out of doing the hard work. My coach is the tuffest in the whole Aquatic Center. Most of the time my team is completely exhasted.
In real life we have tests and trails that test us too. That are much harder than a "swim practice". How do we deal and make it through them?
Here is what people say about enduring hard times.
~You are capable of more than you know. Choose a goal that seems right for you and strive to be the best, however hard the path. Aim high. Behave honorably. Prepare to be alone at times, and to endure failure. Persist! The world needs all you can give. -Edward O. Wilson quotes
~Strange how laughter looks like crying with no sound and how raindrops taste like tears without pain
~”Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today? -Mary Manin Morrissey
~When one door closes another one opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us. - Bell, Alexander Graham
How do you make it through hard times? Tell me your stories.
What does God say about going through hard times?
~Psalm 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
~Philippians 4:19
And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
~Romans 8:18
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
~2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
~Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
With God hard times don't have to be so hard.
In real life we have tests and trails that test us too. That are much harder than a "swim practice". How do we deal and make it through them?
Here is what people say about enduring hard times.
~You are capable of more than you know. Choose a goal that seems right for you and strive to be the best, however hard the path. Aim high. Behave honorably. Prepare to be alone at times, and to endure failure. Persist! The world needs all you can give. -Edward O. Wilson quotes
~Strange how laughter looks like crying with no sound and how raindrops taste like tears without pain
~”Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today? -Mary Manin Morrissey
~When one door closes another one opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us. - Bell, Alexander Graham
How do you make it through hard times? Tell me your stories.
What does God say about going through hard times?
~Psalm 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
~Philippians 4:19
And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
~Romans 8:18
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
~2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
~Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
With God hard times don't have to be so hard.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
What is love?
Is it when you first set eyes on him/her?
Is it when you first kiss?
Is it when you say "I love you"?
Is it the way ya'll talk?
Is it that moment when you look at each other and smile and feel safe inside?
Is it when you make out?
Is it when you let him/her into your deepest or darkest hours?
Is it when you make it through a hard time?
Or is it all of those put together?
Or are those things that come from being in love?
Love is a powerful and beautiful thing. It will make you feel all giddy inside. It can make you feel sick at times too. Love is hard but completely worth it. Love can be good and it can be bad. But no love is ever wasted.
If the person you love died tomorrow, what would you do? What would you feel?
Is it when you first kiss?
Is it when you say "I love you"?
Is it the way ya'll talk?
Is it that moment when you look at each other and smile and feel safe inside?
Is it when you make out?
Is it when you let him/her into your deepest or darkest hours?
Is it when you make it through a hard time?
Or is it all of those put together?
Or are those things that come from being in love?
Love is a powerful and beautiful thing. It will make you feel all giddy inside. It can make you feel sick at times too. Love is hard but completely worth it. Love can be good and it can be bad. But no love is ever wasted.
If the person you love died tomorrow, what would you do? What would you feel?
The 4th Of July!
What do we celebrate on this day? Any thoughts?
It is the day the Declaration Of Independace was signed.
“It cannot be emphasized too strongly or too often that this great Nation was founded not by religionists, but by Christians; not on religious, but on the Gospel of Jesus Christ. For that reason alone, people of other faiths have been afforded freedom of worship here.” Patrick Henry
"My only hope of salvation is in the infinite, transcendent love of God manifested to the world by the death of His Son upon the Cross. Nothing but His blood will wash away my sins. I rely exclusively upon it. Come, Lord Jesus! Come quickly!" Benjamin Rush
"Without a humble imitation of the characteristics of the Divine Author of our blessed religion, we can never hope to be a happy nation." George Washington
"God who gave us life gave us liberty. And can the liberties of a nation be thought secure if we have removed their only firm basis: a conviction in the minds of men that these liberties are the gift of God? That they are not to be violated but with His wrath? Indeed, I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just; that His justice cannot sleep forever." - Thomas Jefferson
"The longer I live, the more convincing proofs I see of this truth: 'that God governs in the affairs of men.' And if a sparrow cannot fall to the ground without His notice,"If we ever forget that we are One Nation Under God, then we will be a Nation gone under." - Ronald Reagan
Our Nation is becomeing a sinful and wrong doing Nation. We make sin seem ok. We act like sin is right, when we all know it is wrong. But Why???
We need to change our ways, NOW. God's wrath is SCARRY and real. We aren't strong enough to stand against it. We need to repent of our sin and pray for our Nation. That we will rise again as a Godly Nation.
1 John 1:9~If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
Psalm 85
1 Lord, you poured out blessings on your land!
You restored the fortunes of Israel.
2 You forgave the guilt of your people—
yes, you covered all their sins.
Interlude
3 You held back your fury.
You kept back your blazing anger.
4 Now restore us again, O God of our salvation.
Put aside your anger against us once more.
5 Will you be angry with us always?
Will you prolong your wrath to all generations?
6 Won’t you revive us again,
so your people can rejoice in you?
7 Show us your unfailing love, O Lord,
and grant us your salvation.
8 I listen carefully to what God the Lord is saying,
for he speaks peace to his faithful people.
But let them not return to their foolish ways.
9 Surely his salvation is near to those who fear him,
so our land will be filled with his glory.
10 Unfailing love and truth have met together.
Righteousness and peace have kissed!
11 Truth springs up from the earth,
and righteousness smiles down from heaven.
12 Yes, the Lord pours down his blessings.
Our land will yield its bountiful harvest.
13 Righteousness goes as a herald before him,
preparing the way for his steps.
Happy 4th Of July!!
It is the day the Declaration Of Independace was signed.
“It cannot be emphasized too strongly or too often that this great Nation was founded not by religionists, but by Christians; not on religious, but on the Gospel of Jesus Christ. For that reason alone, people of other faiths have been afforded freedom of worship here.” Patrick Henry
"My only hope of salvation is in the infinite, transcendent love of God manifested to the world by the death of His Son upon the Cross. Nothing but His blood will wash away my sins. I rely exclusively upon it. Come, Lord Jesus! Come quickly!" Benjamin Rush
"Without a humble imitation of the characteristics of the Divine Author of our blessed religion, we can never hope to be a happy nation." George Washington
"God who gave us life gave us liberty. And can the liberties of a nation be thought secure if we have removed their only firm basis: a conviction in the minds of men that these liberties are the gift of God? That they are not to be violated but with His wrath? Indeed, I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just; that His justice cannot sleep forever." - Thomas Jefferson
"The longer I live, the more convincing proofs I see of this truth: 'that God governs in the affairs of men.' And if a sparrow cannot fall to the ground without His notice,"If we ever forget that we are One Nation Under God, then we will be a Nation gone under." - Ronald Reagan
Our Nation is becomeing a sinful and wrong doing Nation. We make sin seem ok. We act like sin is right, when we all know it is wrong. But Why???
We need to change our ways, NOW. God's wrath is SCARRY and real. We aren't strong enough to stand against it. We need to repent of our sin and pray for our Nation. That we will rise again as a Godly Nation.
1 John 1:9~If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
Psalm 85
1 Lord, you poured out blessings on your land!
You restored the fortunes of Israel.
2 You forgave the guilt of your people—
yes, you covered all their sins.
Interlude
3 You held back your fury.
You kept back your blazing anger.
4 Now restore us again, O God of our salvation.
Put aside your anger against us once more.
5 Will you be angry with us always?
Will you prolong your wrath to all generations?
6 Won’t you revive us again,
so your people can rejoice in you?
7 Show us your unfailing love, O Lord,
and grant us your salvation.
8 I listen carefully to what God the Lord is saying,
for he speaks peace to his faithful people.
But let them not return to their foolish ways.
9 Surely his salvation is near to those who fear him,
so our land will be filled with his glory.
10 Unfailing love and truth have met together.
Righteousness and peace have kissed!
11 Truth springs up from the earth,
and righteousness smiles down from heaven.
12 Yes, the Lord pours down his blessings.
Our land will yield its bountiful harvest.
13 Righteousness goes as a herald before him,
preparing the way for his steps.
Happy 4th Of July!!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Part 3 of My Story
November 4, 2010 11 p.m. Laying on my bed.
I am overwhelmed I mean Bobby asked me out, HEHEHE so fun! Ok so my mom and Justin left they are going to Olive Garden. Wow I wonder what they will be doing there I mean I know Justin will kiss her that is just his personality.
Ok so I am on facebook and Ben is chatting with me. I love him to death lol he is so much fun.
BEN-Hey, buddy I see you!
He sees me ok a little weird! Oh I left my window open and our widows are by each others they are maybe ten feet away. Pretty cool right?
BLAKE-I see you too!
BEN-Haha I love the T-shirt. Taylor Swift rocks.
BLAKE-Oh thanks! Love the bed head.
BEN-Oh yeah I was trying to sleep but could not then I saw you were on your laptop so I though maybe we could talk.
BLAKE-We always can talk.
BEN-Ya I know but I thought you might be too busy talking to Bobby.
BLAKE-I will always have time for you Ben. You are my bestie!
BEN-haha ok. So what is up?
BALKE-Well I got a hug from JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE, Bobby asked me out, and I'm talking to you. What’s up with you?
BEN-Wow is he your moms new boyfriend? Really sounds like fun! Just talking to you and I am going to the skate park tomorrow after school so that will be fun.
BLAKE-Yep. It will be. Cool sounds like fun!
BEN-Yeah.
Then he logged off and went to bed. He looked sad I wonder why. I guess I will have to ask him tomorrow. LeeAnn just called me to tell me that she needs me to pick up her homework for her tomorrow. That means I will have to go by her house tomorrow. Her parents hate me and my mom. They think my mom is a bad woman. I mean she does modeling and stuff. She has boyfriends all the time but she is a great woman.
November 5, 2010 9 p.m. In bed.
My mom got home last night at one. Justin must be a good boyfriend my mom has not been so happy in a while. It is nice to see her smile and always be happy. This weekend my mom has to go for a photo shoot in New York City and will be leaving early tomorrow morning and for the whole weekend I am staying with Ben’s family. I mean that is kinda weird I am sleeping in the same house as the guy I like. I get my own bedroom and everything. His parents are so sweet and everything but people at school might think something is going on.
Today school was lame but Ben said he could not wait for me to stay the weekend. He is so chill with this and stuff. I have been packing my stuff, I know this is weird to have to pack even though I live right next to him. My mom just does not want me in the house while she is gone.
Ben just called me to tell me that I needed to bring two of our favorite movies Get Smart and The Titanic (I know he does not like that movie but I do and he thinks Rose it hot). I can’t wait to go to Ben’s house!
November 6, 2010 At Ben’s in the guest room.
Well today at school the most popular girl Jaycee Miller found out that I was staying at Ben’s house. She told the whole school that we are dating now everyone will really think something is going on. Gosh I am so mad.
But after lunch Jaycee came up to me and said, “So you and Ben are a thing now. I guess he is desperate for a girl. You would never be his first pick.” When she said that I had tears in my eyes and ran away Ben saw the whole thing and came running after me but I went in to the bathroom. I did not want him to see me cry.
I never thought school could be this terrible but it is. Ben had to go to the doctor today so I am at there house alone but he will be back in an hour I am getting ready to go to starbucks Mrs. Johnston is taking me there and picking me up. I am going to wear ripped jeans and a tube top with a jacket. I can’t wait to see Bobby.
OMGSH Bobby just called me. He said he could not come cause he is going into surgery he broke his arm. I hope he is ok. I can’t believe he broke his arm. He said he is sorry but he does not need to be sorry. He said he was running and a he tripped and a car ran over his arm and crushed part of it. Sounds so painful my poor Bobby.
I am overwhelmed I mean Bobby asked me out, HEHEHE so fun! Ok so my mom and Justin left they are going to Olive Garden. Wow I wonder what they will be doing there I mean I know Justin will kiss her that is just his personality.
Ok so I am on facebook and Ben is chatting with me. I love him to death lol he is so much fun.
BEN-Hey, buddy I see you!
He sees me ok a little weird! Oh I left my window open and our widows are by each others they are maybe ten feet away. Pretty cool right?
BLAKE-I see you too!
BEN-Haha I love the T-shirt. Taylor Swift rocks.
BLAKE-Oh thanks! Love the bed head.
BEN-Oh yeah I was trying to sleep but could not then I saw you were on your laptop so I though maybe we could talk.
BLAKE-We always can talk.
BEN-Ya I know but I thought you might be too busy talking to Bobby.
BLAKE-I will always have time for you Ben. You are my bestie!
BEN-haha ok. So what is up?
BALKE-Well I got a hug from JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE, Bobby asked me out, and I'm talking to you. What’s up with you?
BEN-Wow is he your moms new boyfriend? Really sounds like fun! Just talking to you and I am going to the skate park tomorrow after school so that will be fun.
BLAKE-Yep. It will be. Cool sounds like fun!
BEN-Yeah.
Then he logged off and went to bed. He looked sad I wonder why. I guess I will have to ask him tomorrow. LeeAnn just called me to tell me that she needs me to pick up her homework for her tomorrow. That means I will have to go by her house tomorrow. Her parents hate me and my mom. They think my mom is a bad woman. I mean she does modeling and stuff. She has boyfriends all the time but she is a great woman.
November 5, 2010 9 p.m. In bed.
My mom got home last night at one. Justin must be a good boyfriend my mom has not been so happy in a while. It is nice to see her smile and always be happy. This weekend my mom has to go for a photo shoot in New York City and will be leaving early tomorrow morning and for the whole weekend I am staying with Ben’s family. I mean that is kinda weird I am sleeping in the same house as the guy I like. I get my own bedroom and everything. His parents are so sweet and everything but people at school might think something is going on.
Today school was lame but Ben said he could not wait for me to stay the weekend. He is so chill with this and stuff. I have been packing my stuff, I know this is weird to have to pack even though I live right next to him. My mom just does not want me in the house while she is gone.
Ben just called me to tell me that I needed to bring two of our favorite movies Get Smart and The Titanic (I know he does not like that movie but I do and he thinks Rose it hot). I can’t wait to go to Ben’s house!
November 6, 2010 At Ben’s in the guest room.
Well today at school the most popular girl Jaycee Miller found out that I was staying at Ben’s house. She told the whole school that we are dating now everyone will really think something is going on. Gosh I am so mad.
But after lunch Jaycee came up to me and said, “So you and Ben are a thing now. I guess he is desperate for a girl. You would never be his first pick.” When she said that I had tears in my eyes and ran away Ben saw the whole thing and came running after me but I went in to the bathroom. I did not want him to see me cry.
I never thought school could be this terrible but it is. Ben had to go to the doctor today so I am at there house alone but he will be back in an hour I am getting ready to go to starbucks Mrs. Johnston is taking me there and picking me up. I am going to wear ripped jeans and a tube top with a jacket. I can’t wait to see Bobby.
OMGSH Bobby just called me. He said he could not come cause he is going into surgery he broke his arm. I hope he is ok. I can’t believe he broke his arm. He said he is sorry but he does not need to be sorry. He said he was running and a he tripped and a car ran over his arm and crushed part of it. Sounds so painful my poor Bobby.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Falling For Someone!
It's not fun when the person you like is better than you. When they find out you do crazy stuff and think its bad, what do you do? And then you always realize you don't want to let them go. Do you change or do they accept you?
Tell me what you think.
Tell me what you think.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Part 2 of my story.
November 3, 2010 Waiting at the bus stop.
Ben just told me he was getting a new puppy today! She is mini poodle. He says that he will call me when she arrives and then we get to name her. I know you are probably thinking wow you and Ben are like a couple but we are not like that. I mean I kinda like him but we are not like romantic just bffs.
Ben says I should get a pet too but I don’t know. I mean I love animals but I might forget to feed it. And then he would die and I would feel terrible. But anyways the bus is late and Ben says we should just walk to school but I don’t want to. So we are going to wait and wait and wait.
November 3, 2010 Lunch
While me and Ben were waiting for the bus he suggested we play true or dare. Wow was that fun or what it went something like this.
BEN-Truth or dare?
BLAKE (me)-Hhhhmmm. Dare.
BEN-Ok. Go lick the stop sign.
I walked over to it and licked it YUCK!!!
BLAKE-I did it! Truth or dare?
BEN-Truth.
BLAKE-When was your first kiss?
BEN-Well. Gosh! I have never kissed a girl ever. Don’t you dare tell anyone that though.
BLAKE-I won’t promise. Really you never have kissed a girl?
BEN-Nope never. Truth or dare?
Wow I thought he had kissed a girl before. I mean I don’t care but I think he is saving his first kiss for someone special or he would not have waited.
BLAKE-Truth.
BEN-Would you ever kiss me?
Omgsh I can not believe he just asked me that EEEPPP. I mean I could not lie to him because he knows me to well. I mean I so want to kiss him.
BLAKE-Well yeah I would. Would you kiss me?
BEN-Haha cool! Hey no fair I asked you. You can’t ask me that question since I have already asked it.
BLAKE-Ok. So truth or dare?
BEN-Dare!
BLAKE-Rap Got Money really loud.
BEN-Gosh no!
BLAKE-You have to I dared you!
BEN-Ok.
I need a Winn-Dixie grocery bag full of money
Right now to the VIP section
You got Young Mula in the house tonight baby
Yeah, hello, yeah! Young, young
Young, young
Young Mula Baby.......
BLAKE-HAHAHAHA! Good job Ben! LOVED IT! Hehe
BEN-Gosh dang-it that was embarrassing and my mom drove by I hope she did not hear I don’t suppose to know that song.
BLAKE-Yes I see the bus!
BEN-Finally!
I had so much fun with Ben! Now I am at lunch and LeeAnn is sick so she can not come to school. But I am sitting with Ben and a bunch of skaters. Gosh these skaters are hot. Today’s lunch was pork and I am allergic to pork so I am eating a salad. Ben’s friends are funny I love them.
November 4, 2010 Watching Grey’s Anatomy
WOW my mom’s new boyfriend is sitting watching Grey’s Anatomy with me and my mom. You will never guess who he is…………JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!!!! He is so HOT! And he gave me a hug! Omgsh Guess who is texting me! Bobby-poo! :)
BOBBY-Hey, how’s it going?
BLAKE-Great. I am sitting by Justin Timberlake. You?
BOBBY-Haha funny. Pretty good except I failed my last algebra test. :)
BLAKE-I am serious he is right by me. He is my mom’s new boyfriend. Oh I am sorry. :)
BOBBY-Really? Let me guess you are flirting with him! Lol. Ya it sucks.
BLAKE-Ya. Of course. What do you think I could possibly not flirt with Justin! Hello he is a super cuttie!
BOBBY-Oh I know. But I though I was your super cuttie? :)
BLAKE-Well you are but I mean Justin totally beats you. Sorry.
BOBBY-Well then! Haha. :)
BLAKE-Don’t be sad. Ok you are my super cuttie! I will try to forget about Justin.
BOBBY-Hahaha good. Gosh I have not seen you in forever.
BLAKE-I know I miss you!
BOBBY-I miss you too! Hey what are you doing Friday night?
BLAKE-Well I am singing on Oprah, then dancing with Jayz. OK nothing.
BOBBY-Haha Do you want to maybe go to starbucks and hang out?
OMGSH did he just ask me out? Or is it a just friends thing? AAAHHH! I am so happy!
BLAKE-Yeah I would like that!
BOBBY-Haha I know!
BLAKE-Ya, you know me too well.
BOBBY-So meet you there at 7?
BLAKE-Ya I will be there.
BOBBY- Cool! Well I guess I will cya then.
WOW I am in heaven! First I get a hug from Justin Timberlake and now Bobby asked me out. I am so happy. This is just what I wanted!
Ben just told me he was getting a new puppy today! She is mini poodle. He says that he will call me when she arrives and then we get to name her. I know you are probably thinking wow you and Ben are like a couple but we are not like that. I mean I kinda like him but we are not like romantic just bffs.
Ben says I should get a pet too but I don’t know. I mean I love animals but I might forget to feed it. And then he would die and I would feel terrible. But anyways the bus is late and Ben says we should just walk to school but I don’t want to. So we are going to wait and wait and wait.
November 3, 2010 Lunch
While me and Ben were waiting for the bus he suggested we play true or dare. Wow was that fun or what it went something like this.
BEN-Truth or dare?
BLAKE (me)-Hhhhmmm. Dare.
BEN-Ok. Go lick the stop sign.
I walked over to it and licked it YUCK!!!
BLAKE-I did it! Truth or dare?
BEN-Truth.
BLAKE-When was your first kiss?
BEN-Well. Gosh! I have never kissed a girl ever. Don’t you dare tell anyone that though.
BLAKE-I won’t promise. Really you never have kissed a girl?
BEN-Nope never. Truth or dare?
Wow I thought he had kissed a girl before. I mean I don’t care but I think he is saving his first kiss for someone special or he would not have waited.
BLAKE-Truth.
BEN-Would you ever kiss me?
Omgsh I can not believe he just asked me that EEEPPP. I mean I could not lie to him because he knows me to well. I mean I so want to kiss him.
BLAKE-Well yeah I would. Would you kiss me?
BEN-Haha cool! Hey no fair I asked you. You can’t ask me that question since I have already asked it.
BLAKE-Ok. So truth or dare?
BEN-Dare!
BLAKE-Rap Got Money really loud.
BEN-Gosh no!
BLAKE-You have to I dared you!
BEN-Ok.
I need a Winn-Dixie grocery bag full of money
Right now to the VIP section
You got Young Mula in the house tonight baby
Yeah, hello, yeah! Young, young
Young, young
Young Mula Baby.......
BLAKE-HAHAHAHA! Good job Ben! LOVED IT! Hehe
BEN-Gosh dang-it that was embarrassing and my mom drove by I hope she did not hear I don’t suppose to know that song.
BLAKE-Yes I see the bus!
BEN-Finally!
I had so much fun with Ben! Now I am at lunch and LeeAnn is sick so she can not come to school. But I am sitting with Ben and a bunch of skaters. Gosh these skaters are hot. Today’s lunch was pork and I am allergic to pork so I am eating a salad. Ben’s friends are funny I love them.
November 4, 2010 Watching Grey’s Anatomy
WOW my mom’s new boyfriend is sitting watching Grey’s Anatomy with me and my mom. You will never guess who he is…………JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!!!! He is so HOT! And he gave me a hug! Omgsh Guess who is texting me! Bobby-poo! :)
BOBBY-Hey, how’s it going?
BLAKE-Great. I am sitting by Justin Timberlake. You?
BOBBY-Haha funny. Pretty good except I failed my last algebra test. :)
BLAKE-I am serious he is right by me. He is my mom’s new boyfriend. Oh I am sorry. :)
BOBBY-Really? Let me guess you are flirting with him! Lol. Ya it sucks.
BLAKE-Ya. Of course. What do you think I could possibly not flirt with Justin! Hello he is a super cuttie!
BOBBY-Oh I know. But I though I was your super cuttie? :)
BLAKE-Well you are but I mean Justin totally beats you. Sorry.
BOBBY-Well then! Haha. :)
BLAKE-Don’t be sad. Ok you are my super cuttie! I will try to forget about Justin.
BOBBY-Hahaha good. Gosh I have not seen you in forever.
BLAKE-I know I miss you!
BOBBY-I miss you too! Hey what are you doing Friday night?
BLAKE-Well I am singing on Oprah, then dancing with Jayz. OK nothing.
BOBBY-Haha Do you want to maybe go to starbucks and hang out?
OMGSH did he just ask me out? Or is it a just friends thing? AAAHHH! I am so happy!
BLAKE-Yeah I would like that!
BOBBY-Haha I know!
BLAKE-Ya, you know me too well.
BOBBY-So meet you there at 7?
BLAKE-Ya I will be there.
BOBBY- Cool! Well I guess I will cya then.
WOW I am in heaven! First I get a hug from Justin Timberlake and now Bobby asked me out. I am so happy. This is just what I wanted!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Ok. So I love writing stories! So I decided to every Thurdsday post a part of a story. So you will have to keep reading to find out what happens!!
November 2, 2010 In study hall.
Ok I know this is going to sound weird but my mom wants me to put all my thoughts in this journal. She said it would help me "Get through life". What the heck does that suppose to mean???
Oh well I don't really care. My name is Blake Simmons. But today I learned there was going to be a Sadie Hawkins Dance at school!!!!!!!!!!!! Eeeeepppp! I am so excited. I mean I have never been to a dance. Ok, I know what you are thinking 'How can a freshman never have gone to a dance?' Well my mom has home-schooled me my whole life. I wanted to go to dances in middle school but they never had any for home-school kids.
But now I get to go to one YES! Well that is if I can find a guy to ask and if he accepts. At lunch today I walked into the caf. and LeeAnn a blonde haired, blue eyed girl, came up behind me and gave me a big hug. I got so scarred not knowing who it was that I turned around and slapped her. LOL I felt so bad once I realized it was her. Everyone was all like that was so smooth Blake.
Ya I guess it was kinda embarrassing but I don't really care. But I always think about my friends, from when I home-schooled. I am still really good friends with one of them his name is Bobby Riley. He is 5’11 and super tan; he has brown eyes and wears contacts. His hair is brown and like a Justin Bieber cut, her even does the hair flip thing but it is super hot.I met him in six grade and we have been friends ever since. Oh and I like him and he knows it but it completely faltered by it. Well I have to go study hall is almost over.
November 2, 2010 In the bus!
Omgsh I love the bus I am sitting right by my neighbor and my best friend. He wants me to make his name be Colton
Once me and Ben get home we are going to his house to “STUDY” but really we are going to watch an episode of NCIS. We are like addicted to that show. Better yet his mom is going to be home and she said she would make us brownies. I would write more but Ben keeps looking so I guess I won’t.
I am in love with BOBBY RILEY!! <3
Why do I always write in pen! Ugg ok I do love Bobby but I did not write that Ben stole my pen. I can’t believe I told him about Bobby. But me and Ben are almost home I have to pack up my books.
November 2, 2010 Late
Ok so I had a super awesome time with Ben. We watch an episode where McGee is under high pressure during the murder investigation of a Petty Officer based on the character for his latest book, with very little information to go on. I got so scared I literally jumped in Ben’s lap and sat there for like a minute. He loved it though he put his arms around me and held me close.
I love having Ben for a best friend. Once the episode was over Mrs. Johnston
My mom has been so happy today she is so funny. I think she has like a new boyfriend. My mom had me her senior year in high school. But she still won’t tell me who my dad is. It makes me kinda sad but I am use to it. Mom is thirty-two and still knows how to work it with the men! I am proud of her I mean she is a model and still looks good in a bikini. But she is a bad cook I mean terrible but she cooked a frozen pizza tonight and I loved it.
I am so tired but I have to study for a quiz in biology. I love that class but I just hate studying. Omgsh my favorite song just came on the radio!!! It is called Face Drop! So coo! Well I am going to bed night.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Prom and Tattoos!
So who all is going to Prom this year? Well I just got my dress to day!!! I love it. It is a deep purple halter, mermaid dress. Gorgeous. Post pictures of your dresses girls! I want to see!!:)
Today I figured out what tattoos I want to get.
This one on each wrist.
Also this one!! What do you think! Tell me.
Today I figured out what tattoos I want to get.
This one on each wrist.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
We have all been jerks before, right?
I think we have. I was one last night and today. But it was really all a mistake. What are the best ways to make it up to a person. I keep thinking about this one. I mean we all know what to do if it is for a love interest.
And men will be putty in your hands if you give them a good kiss! So true right?
Well what do you do to a guy that is a friend. I mean i would kiss him but still. What do you do to make it up to him? Any thoughts? I would love them!:)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Embarrassing!!:/
OK so we have all been embarrassed. Tell me some of your stories about being embarrassed but not just embarrassed but in front of someone your like or along the lines of it has to involve someone you like:) Have fun with it don't be embarrassed to tell.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Which of these pictures describe your perfect valentines day most?
Well which ever one does i hope you have a lovely Valentines Day.
I wrote something a while back when I was crushing on this boy. He was super cute and just you know that amazing guy that every girl wants. He is apparently a good kisser and all that good stuff. Well here is what I wrote.
Why don't we tell the person we love that we love them? Why are we so afraid of telling them? Or are we afraid of the truth? Are we afraid of their reaction or ours? Do we think if they don't feel the same way we will be more miserable than we already are? Are we really so completely afraid of the unknown? If we want them to drowned us in love why don't we give them a chance? It's called drowning in love, and why is that? Cause it is hard? Cause it is unknown? What the hell is love any way? Can love really stand the test of time? Is it worth all the pain? Why can't I fucking fess up? I think I really love him but why am I afraid to tell him? Why am I afraid to look at him in person? Why am I so afraid of hearing his voice is it because I know i will fall even more in love? Is his touch really that electrifying I would do anything to get it yes never get the guts to?
Tell me what you think!!:)
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