Unconditional Love!

This song has been on my heart for awhile. Shouldn't love be like this? Whether you leave or not. To where you care about someone unconditionally, not matter what.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9p5TZGwmRpU

The ultimate lesson all of us have to learn is unconditional love, which includes not only others but ourselves as well.
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Just like Beauty and The Beast. The book shows the unconditional love more so.

Part 4 of My Story!!:)

November 6, 2010 2 p.m. In Ben’s guest bedroom.
Tonight was so fun! When Ben came home from the doctor we went outside and Myles(A really cute blonde skater), Jesse(Skater from India he looks like Salem from Slumdog Millionaire) and Connor(Skater he looks just like Justin Bieber) came over. We hung out and talked and they skated. They were all flirting with me. Here is some of our conversation.
MYLES-Blake, I heard what Jaycee did today. Don’t take it personally she is a butt.
CONNOR-Oh yeah I heard about that. SO is anything going on?
BLAKE(me)-Uuumm no.
BEN-Gosh guys! She is just staying at my house for the weekend.
JESSE-Wow that honestly sounds kinda bad.
BEN-Oh my gosh it does. But trust me nothing will happen.
JESSE-So you two have like known each other forever. Have you really like never kissed her or anything. I sure would.
At this time I was like wow these guy don’t care what they say. Then Jesse came and sat down right beside me and our hips were touching. I could totally feel a vibe. I mean and he looked good, he was in a tank top.
BEN-No I have not kissed her.
MYLES-Crap! I just broke my finger.
Myles’ finger was like 3 inches round and blue. Ben ran inside and got an ice pack and Myles came and set on the other sit of me. And his hip was touching mine and he laid his head on my shoulder.
JESSE-Gosh Myles your finger is huge. I bet you want Blake to kiss it.
MYLES-Oh yeah you know it!
BEN-Gosh guys! She is a good girl don’t ruin her record.
CONNOR-Oh so she has a good record. That is my type of girl.
BALKE-Wow guys I am not that type of a girl. Or at least I try not to be.
Jesse leaned over put he head on my shoulder and whispers in my ear ‘Hey you are pretty hot babe’. Wow this is a guy over load.
MYLES-Blake my finger hurts will you kiss it?
BLAKE-Wow. Ok only because you are hurt.
So I leaned over and kissed him finger very lightly.
JESSE-I think I am going to bust my lips open so I can get a kiss. Hahaha.

Yeah that type of stuff went on for two hours. But I liked it. I mean it was kinda weird to talk to guy like that but it was fun. Then Mrs. Johnston told us it was dinner time. We all ate dinner together it was really fun. And then we heard the doorbell and it was Keith Johnston he came home from collage. It was a complete surprise. Everyone was hugging while I was sitting at the table just watching. Then Keith nodded my way and was like Ben you did good. And Ben was like we are not dating she is just staying the weekend. Then Keith said oh so now you have a live in girl friend. Ben started blushing and Mrs. Johnston explained the whole thing.

After dinner me and Ben went to his room and started watching Get Smart. I was sitting on the floor and he was on the bed. I did not really feel comfortable being on a bed with I guy with out him letting me. But then he was like Blake come sit up here with me. So I did and he has a queen bed but we were still a couple inches away from each other. I liked it. Then in the middle of the movie he looked at me and I looked at him. He leaned over put his hand on my cheek and slipped it backwards and turned my head and kissed my cheek. Then he looked me in the eyes and smiled. I smiled and just kept looking in his eyes we were like this for a minute until Keith came barging into Ben’s room and was all like what is going on in here. We told him we were just watching a movie but he did not believe us.

AAAAHHH I can’t believe he kissed me well on the cheek but I am so happy! But I also feel bad I mean I like Bobby too. Wow being a teenager is confusing. But I like it being confusing it makes it fun.

Well after Keith left we finished the movie. It was really good. Then we just set on his bed and talked. Then his mom said we have to get our pj’s on so he told me to put mine on and wait outside if he is not done. So I ran to my room and put on my sweatpants and tank top. Then his door was open, so I went in and he was wearing plaid fleece pants and a grey tank top. He was so hot.

He was on his bed so I slid on the bed and sat by him. We talked about school and sports. Then he asked me if I really liked Bobby and I sat there and just though. After a while I replied yes I like him but I am a little confused. Then he asked me why. And I said because I kinda like you but I really like him. He said he felt the same way but Bobby was a girl that went to our school. Then we talked about how when we were little we would play princess and prairie.

Me and Ben have a lot of history and I mean we have gotten married twice, of course it was pretend, but it meant something. Then it got late and I stood up and he stood up and walked me to my room and gave me a goodnight hug. He is the best friend I have ever had. So here I am now touching my cheek over and over and my arms. I mean he kissed my cheek then he gives me a hug in a tank top. We both had bare arms! But it felt really good.

November 7, 2010 8 a.m. Sitting on my bed. (well the one at Ben’s house)
I just got out of the shower. I know it is really early for a Saturday but I can’t sleep later then seven. I don’t know why but I just can’t. Ben is still asleep. I still can’t believe Ben kissed me. I want to tell someone but then people will think something is really happening between us. I mean I guess something is happening between us. But it is a personal think that me and him need to talk about.

Gosh Keith is up I hear him down stairs. I think he is cooking breakfast. I am so hungry! But I don’t really want to go down there with Keith I don’t know him well enough yet. Keith is so funny I love him last night he kept making jokes about Ben and me like we were a thing. He made us laugh so hard and blush.

Oh I hear Ben he is going into the bathroom that our bedrooms are joined with. Kinda weird right? I mean he could just come in my room. Wow he is loud gosh he is playing music. I love this song it is Replay by Iyaz. I am so bored right now I am throwing a small ball on the wall then catching it then throwing it over and over. I hope I do not break anything.

Mrs. Johnston keeps her house really clean I mean this room is spotless I mean nothing is dirty. And the bathroom is perfect. The room I am in is so pretty. The bed is so comfortable and soft. It is like heaven.

Ben is in the shower now lol. I feel so weird knowing that. I mean I should not know when my “GUY” best friend is in the shower. But it is kinda cool. Wow I think way to much. But it clams me and then again annoys me.

Pain!

“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.” ~Meridith Grey

Pain sucks. It's as simple as that. It's not fun or enjoyable. It hurts you and the people around you. What helps ya'll endure pain??

So this post is just for the girls!

So I know we all love designing stuff: Outfits, our rooms, our locker, even the guys we want to date. Here are some of my favorite cheep clothes.

Wood Ring Tribe Tube
$18.99
From Rue 21

Southside
$25
From Holister

Juniors Op String Bikini Top & Bottoms
$12
From Walmart

Being Able to Endure Hard Times.

I am on a swim team and we have to do long and hard work outs. They push us to our limits. There is no way to get out of doing the hard work. My coach is the tuffest in the whole Aquatic Center. Most of the time my team is completely exhasted.
In real life we have tests and trails that test us too. That are much harder than a "swim practice". How do we deal and make it through them?
Here is what people say about enduring hard times.
~You are capable of more than you know. Choose a goal that seems right for you and strive to be the best, however hard the path. Aim high. Behave honorably. Prepare to be alone at times, and to endure failure. Persist! The world needs all you can give. -Edward O. Wilson quotes
~Strange how laughter looks like crying with no sound and how raindrops taste like tears without pain
~”Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today? -Mary Manin Morrissey
~When one door closes another one opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us. - Bell, Alexander Graham

How do you make it through hard times? Tell me your stories.

What does God say about going through hard times?
~Psalm 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
~Philippians 4:19
And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.
~Romans 8:18
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
~2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
~Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

With God hard times don't have to be so hard.

What is love?

Is it when you first set eyes on him/her?
Is it when you first kiss?
Is it when you say "I love you"?
Is it the way ya'll talk?
Is it that moment when you look at each other and smile and feel safe inside?
Is it when you make out?
Is it when you let him/her into your deepest or darkest hours?
Is it when you make it through a hard time?
Or is it all of those put together?
Or are those things that come from being in love?

Love is a powerful and beautiful thing. It will make you feel all giddy inside. It can make you feel sick at times too. Love is hard but completely worth it. Love can be good and it can be bad. But no love is ever wasted.

If the person you love died tomorrow, what would you do? What would you feel?

The 4th Of July!

What do we celebrate on this day? Any thoughts?
It is the day the Declaration Of Independace was signed.
“It cannot be emphasized too strongly or too often that this great Nation was founded not by religionists, but by Christians; not on religious, but on the Gospel of Jesus Christ. For that reason alone, people of other faiths have been afforded freedom of worship here.” Patrick Henry
"My only hope of salvation is in the infinite, transcendent love of God manifested to the world by the death of His Son upon the Cross. Nothing but His blood will wash away my sins. I rely exclusively upon it. Come, Lord Jesus! Come quickly!" Benjamin Rush
"Without a humble imitation of the characteristics of the Divine Author of our blessed religion, we can never hope to be a happy nation." George Washington

"God who gave us life gave us liberty. And can the liberties of a nation be thought secure if we have removed their only firm basis: a conviction in the minds of men that these liberties are the gift of God? That they are not to be violated but with His wrath? Indeed, I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just; that His justice cannot sleep forever." - Thomas Jefferson
"The longer I live, the more convincing proofs I see of this truth: 'that God governs in the affairs of men.' And if a sparrow cannot fall to the ground without His notice,"If we ever forget that we are One Nation Under God, then we will be a Nation gone under." - Ronald Reagan

Our Nation is becomeing a sinful and wrong doing Nation. We make sin seem ok. We act like sin is right, when we all know it is wrong. But Why???
We need to change our ways, NOW. God's wrath is SCARRY and real. We aren't strong enough to stand against it. We need to repent of our sin and pray for our Nation. That we will rise again as a Godly Nation.
1 John 1:9~If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
Psalm 85
1 Lord, you poured out blessings on your land!
You restored the fortunes of Israel.
2 You forgave the guilt of your people—
yes, you covered all their sins.
Interlude

3 You held back your fury.
You kept back your blazing anger.
4 Now restore us again, O God of our salvation.
Put aside your anger against us once more.
5 Will you be angry with us always?
Will you prolong your wrath to all generations?
6 Won’t you revive us again,
so your people can rejoice in you?
7 Show us your unfailing love, O Lord,
and grant us your salvation.

8 I listen carefully to what God the Lord is saying,
for he speaks peace to his faithful people.
But let them not return to their foolish ways.
9 Surely his salvation is near to those who fear him,
so our land will be filled with his glory.

10 Unfailing love and truth have met together.
Righteousness and peace have kissed!
11 Truth springs up from the earth,
and righteousness smiles down from heaven.
12 Yes, the Lord pours down his blessings.
Our land will yield its bountiful harvest.
13 Righteousness goes as a herald before him,
preparing the way for his steps.

Happy 4th Of July!!